M I R A G E

2009-08-31T05:51:00.000-07:00

yes, you've guessed it.
i've moved.
*enough of blogger glictes*

i'll figure my way, like i always did.

A part of me just died.

2009-08-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

i was feeling really upset/furious over that particular sms.
and i think i've just reached my ultimatum.
twist of fate, it's now my turn to disappear.
and honestly, i dont know if i'll be back.

i just feel i cant forgive your insensitivity.
even if i managed, maybe i would live in the haunting shadows of today.
can i really continue to trust?
cuz i doubt i can overlook the details anymore.

might as well.
since we arent really on talking terms lately.
different frequencies now i guess, lets cut our act.
who knows, perhaps we'll all be better off.

the old sayings were right.
we should face the problem when it arises and not pretend nothing had happened.
when we overlook the magnitude of the problems, these every little bits accumulate and snowball,
and all it takes is just one minor insensitivity,
and we are done...

i dont know what else to say.
a part of me just died.

Bliss.

2009-08-21T08:58:00.000-07:00

looks like blogger is up and running again.

I HAVE OFFICIALLY ENDED MY WORK.
yays!
on holidays till further notice from school.
Will be dropping by school to take a peek @ the subject guides to see what to take next sem.
hopefully shane can come along, so we can discuss a lil.

thursday.
met up with jasper for dinner and movies.
and we watched Orphan.
omg... its really psychotic,
no spoiler, dun worry...
liked the twist in the story, and the movie created such tension in me that i felt so much alive after watching....
was a nice show, considering its by warner bros.

friday (today).
the team was feeling rather down today, maybe because it was my last day.
spent the day doing some filing, some admin, some adhoc.
wondering why time passes so slowly.
anyway, after work, the team went Carls Jr @ Plaza Sing for dinner.
we chatted till 23:00, and yes, i just got home not long ago.

Finally off from work...
in hope dad would give extra pocket money, considering that i had only taken half of what i usually take.
LOL! how spoilt. =x
and yes, everyone knows where my money goes to....
*no prizes guessing where*

i've been doing much thinking these days, though i've tried not to.
the grey matter overwhelmed.
thoughts of optimism, now a buried past
in shades of grey, no clear stand.
awakened from the deep slumber,
time to make a change.

2009-08-10T05:26:00.000-07:00

MOVED

random as always

2009-08-08T19:30:00.000-07:00

Ahhhh.
i missed kosin's call last night.
and the sms about the bacardi.
*thinks i need a lil' bacardi*
Lol.

BUSY

2009-08-07T22:50:00.000-07:00

continued from kosin's newest entry....
blogger and facebook are still having glitches...

Bumped into kosin and adeline at Taka while coming down the escalator.
then kosin shouted my name damn loud kaes. LOL
we talked for awhile about random stuffs that had gotten the security guard's interest.
he was staring at close proximity...
*thinks he wants to be part of our conv*
lol.

anyway, work is just down to four days...
and i can be back being my spoilt brat,
growing fat.
^^

Monday
was feeling exceptionally hyped for work.
largely because i'm having a day off on tuesday.
met up with jasper after work for dinner and movies.
watched Harry Potter....
hmm, personally i think it wasnt as bad as what i've heard from people who had watched.
maybe i went in with no expectations, or perhaps because i didnt read the book.
and jasper nearly got into a fight. =X

Tuesday
woke up at the wrong side of the bed...
left the house at 0900am when the medical appointment is at 0930.
wanted the withdraw cash, realised i didnt bring the atm card.
checked for cash, i only have 15bucks.
walked home again to get the card.
realised i didnt bring my nric while i was on the train.
didnt pass the nurse my appointment card after i had scanned for attendence.
and the nurse BROADCASTED my name. =/

and after the appointment, i went Science Centre...
thinking novena is very near to jurong east.
OMG, it was an hour ride on the train.
went for Da Vinci's exhibition... EYE-OPENING....
i particularly liked da vinci's talent in the arts.
the 25 secrets of mona lisa, the last supper, etc.
spent about 3 hours in the exhibition.

decided to check out Bugis Iluma.
and i was disappointed. There's really nothing there.
dined at this HLX Fusion resturant for fushion burgers.
sweet and sour pork burger, etc.
was a fine lunch.

All these in one day, alone. ^^
i'm so proud of myself, at not getting lost. =)

pics will be up soon, hopefully.
2022pm pledge moment. i wonder why...

didnt he say he will be back?

Cave-out

2009-08-03T08:48:00.000-07:00

Today is a day worth rejoicing.
All it takes is just one sms....
"sorry about my disappearance, i will be back"
No, i didnt ask for the reason, neither did i complain.
*thinks he's secretly reading my blog somewhere* Lol.
Anyway, it feels great!

when we stop asking why, we get the answers
People are pretty much right about the kite theory, cross-referencing to relationships.
when we hold on too tight, the line gets cut off.
when we hold on too loose, the kite gets blown away by the wind.
we need to learn when to draw it close and when to set it loose.

when we quit trying, we get what we want
there's another thing to learn about "caves" --> if you had read john gray's book.
understanding the cycle, not taking it personal while keeping yourself occupied and embrace them once again when they step out of the cave.
the crux lies in how to shorten the "cave in" period.

yes, i secretly wished i know the trick to all of the above.

i love this other side.

needs chinese class

2009-08-02T05:40:00.000-07:00

9 more working days.
was asked to extend the contract.
but i know myself too well to agree to this offer.
i'm more or less trying to wrap up my work already.
and yes, i do know it's a lil too early to even start "wrapping up"
but well, its hurtful to contain the excitement.

anyway, back to yesterday
it didnt help very much that he offered his concern for my nasal condition.
as much as i've personally tried to refrain myself, i lost it by saying things which i know i should never say.
dont be mistaken, i didnt say anything outrageous.
but all's well that ends well.
perhaps its a lesson learnt, we should really keep our distance.

was helping my mum to write out her grocery shopping list while she was trying to recall...
she challenged me to write them out in chinese (since i've confidently[now regretably,] announced i'm higher mt student)
and she said "washing liquid" which is xi2 wan3 ji4 in chinese. and out of these 3 words, i can only write "xi2"
and she said "mushrooms" which is xiang1 gu1 in chinese. and yes, you are prolly right, i can only write "xiang1"
in need of chinese class....
i suggested that maybe my mum should give me chinese spelling test on a weekly basis on basic conversational chinese.
yes, i'm THAT in need of help.

ah it's nine, i will get to bed.

day six.
you in your cave.
lets see how long it will last this time round.

2009-07-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

blogger is up, but the "image upload" button seemed missing.
anyway... had a mini milestone today.
tell you more when i see you, kosin!

anyway, 10more days to hols ^^
congrats to kosin! she's ending hers tmr!
*jealous*
Lol

and ohh, my vest from the online shop is OOS.
*sighhh*
somebody recommend me some quality blogshops.

2009-07-24T07:18:00.000-07:00

i dont get it! why arent the Blogger glitches fixed?

before it's done...
i'll be here: http://oakyhideouts.wordpress.com

2009-07-23T06:35:00.000-07:00

i kinda like Daughtry's new album "Leave This Town" =x
And i can so imagine the look on ysz's face
LOL.
but i'm not crazy enough to buy the album.

there's a part of me that is attached to pop,
another part of me attached to symphony
another teeny weeny part to ambient music/ sounds (like water flowing, birds, etc.)
yet someone like this listens to rock and metal.
i know, i'm one of a kind.

and ohh, there's an encore telecast of the solar eclipse this sunday at 1000am...

lets do this again =)

2009-07-22T07:20:00.003-07:00

wondering whats wrong with Blogger, everything is in a mess, blogging is really tough.

here's the thing... kosin wanted me to accompany her for dinner at compass point, but i didnt get her smses/ calls because i was in the living room. =x
SORRY! wanted to make it up to her by initiating next week, but next week is her last week at work. hmm, but since we are all in the same school, we'll sure have lots of chances!! i'm so glad we are in this togther ^^

and we chatted on the fone for some 30mins, talked about random things, ion/ orchard central.... and she reacted with "Think you better dont go by yourself, you'll prolly get lost".
*speechless*
thats the 2nd time i'm hearing this today.
no surprises for guessing who's the other...

sidetrack ###
maybe it's part of growing up,
where we now have to weigh consequences before actions.
and we reject the actions because we are afraid to challenge the consequences.
we are just afraid things will turn sour.
perhaps we arent very optimistic people to start with,
perhaps we know too well to even try...

I'm more of a man you'll ever be,
I'm more of a woman you'll ever get...

lalalas

2009-07-21T05:30:00.000-07:00

sat
hanged out with ks to shop around. intended to buy a cardigan or maybe a handphone pouch... and ks ended up spending the most.

we splurged on Haagen Dazs brownie explosion even though we were full from dinner.

and its always so full of fun and laughter ^^

sun
caught a cold which developed into a throat infection, so bad that i slept from 8pm till 8am and missed work. =x
on antibiotics again after 2 months.
splitting headache

and ohh.. solar eclipse tmr ^^
maybe i should go on leave tmr.

relish in small pleasures in life.

=)

2009-07-11T21:17:00.000-07:00

Something to cheer the bluey Sundays up....

A Prayer for the Stressed

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I cannot accept,
And the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people I had to kill today because they pissed me off…

And also, help me to be careful of the toes I step on today as they may be connected to the ass that that I may have to kiss tomorrow.

Help to always give 100% at work..
12% on Monday
23% on Tuesday
40% on Wednesday
20% on Thursday
5% on Friday

And help me to remember….
When I’m having a really bad day,
And it seems that people are trying to piss me off,
That it takes 42 muscles to frown and
Only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to bite me!

Amen

thE JuLy bAbiEs

2009-07-11T05:27:00.000-07:00

did something really guilty...
i took half a day off from work... TGIF'd
=x

was on the train home from half-day work and got a call from ysz.
he prolly understands that i'm a complete retard when it comes to smsing with my LG fone.
and so we met up at 330pm.

went vivo to hunt for pat and gary's presents.
and we went Sushi Tei for lunch ^^
we shared.... 5 pcs of salmon, yellowtail and tuna belly sashimi each + soba + red dragon roll (sashimi over sushi wrapped round fried king prawn) + many many cups of green tea.
it was a 50bucks lunch just for two. =x
we had a mini fight over where we should put the salmon sashimi.
think we can apply for the sushi tei membership and stuff ourselves with sashimi.
and i had so many cups of green tea that he said i'm turning green.
lol.

ysz suggested taking a bus to orchard and changing a train to Raffles Place.
we said "eh great! NR6 goes to orchard!"
then we sat and waited for NR6 for about 15mins.
to realise....................
NR = Night Rider.
OMG
then we hopped on to this other bus to orchard.

then after some time...
me "errrr.... where are we?"
ysz looks around.... "errrr..... river valley?"
and we laughed like mad.
kosin smsed "i reached already"
=x.

minds cafe.
yes, long lost randy did come after all. ^^
Lol.
we bought Pat a RiverIsland belt, a Bacardi for Gary.
Lol.
it was insanely fun till 1200am!
and yes, we cabbed home =x

Thanks for showing up!
Kosin, Shaozhi, Gary, Patrick, Robin, Randy, Shaun, Wenhui, Alvina.

brb... i need to do my billing to calculate my total expenditure yesterday.
dreads~~~~~~~~~~~

you shouldnt have asked.
so you'll never have to know.
but if so, i'll never get to see how much i mattered to you.

the change in atmosphere,
your change in expressions,
made me extremely overjoyed but nevertheless guilty at soul.

your little gestures.
and your little compromises.
i'll appreciate and treasure them all.

;)

lalala

2009-07-09T06:11:00.000-07:00

kosin is indeed one true friend.
one who can recognise my handwriting on the SIP Poster.
lol.

okay, i've got 74 mails in my inbox UNREAD.
apparently LKW's album of old sec sch pics generated an uproar
comments from even from the least expected people...
and least expected comments.
lol.

i'm on half day tmr~~~
woohoos.
did somebody say "SLACK" ?
you are so damn right.

everything's not lost

2009-07-07T06:08:00.000-07:00

i think i've hanging out with the wrong gang...
i'm kinda retarded these days.
i need new friends.
LOL
*just kidding!*

gotten man ning and kosin's smses this morning to ask if i was at the orientation today.
and i hadda admit, i thought yesterday was for uol and rmit for today.
got it mixed up =x
and oh, did i say that Liting (PHS) and Joyce (PHS) are joining sim too?
like wow, it's going to turn out to be a mini phs gathering there.
but again, since kosin and i werent exactly much acquaintances with them, so i guess life in sim just goes on normal for me.
and oh, i think i should intro man ning to kosin and vice versa...
so they can meet for lectures.
=)

wondering why is LKW so free to dig up old photos in phs and TAGGING me.
*omg*
excuse me while i go untag myself.
Lol.
talking about LKW.. i haven seen him in the last 2 years.

28more days to holidays ^^
*cant wait for school to start*
particularly so, now that man ning and kosin are in sim ^^

and oh yes, sip@sim is now 200 members strong in strength.
we'll have a fun-filled time (at least in my term of service)
and oh, i've heard eujene came along to help out today.
that explains the numbers on the contact list.
by crook, by hook or by his charm...
Lol.

lets bade a farewell with lasting memories
good memories of us in my heart
lasting impression of me in yours
everything else is God's will.

weekends and holidays will never be the same without you.

but i'm glad my timetable for solitary days are well-planned for.

and i'm truly grateful that everything's not lost, for friends will take your place.

lalalalas

2009-07-06T06:15:00.000-07:00

WOOHOOS
i'm on leave today for CCA Recruitment Drive @ school
bunch of people who turned up for Recruitment Drive (RD) today...
Jarren, Weisi, David, Jokko, Thiri, Verina, Veronica, Alex, ChaiLee, Budi, etc.
slogged till 4pm before we self declared "time for home"
pretty good response.
gotten 50 contact details (which is really remarkable, looking at the "groups" --> not even crowd)
and, i lost my voice.
ah yes, that soccer guy is interesting. =)

decided to be creative about the journey to school today, 156 then 52.
guess what?
i got stuck in a traffic jam @ the expressway along macritchie, for the whole ONE hour.
omg.
and my ysz told me to have faith with buses.
LIKE HOW?

maybe i should try green contact lenses next time round.

things will come to a closure in 2.5months.

gum with rum

2009-07-05T00:43:00.000-07:00

wondering if "appearing offline" on msn has become a way of life for many of us.
no particular reason.
it just feels good hiding in the "dark" and seeing the rest in the "light"
its okay if you dont understand this.
maybe i'm alone feeling it.

anyway, omg!
Louis did get his release on friday.
maybe thats why we must always "be careful of what you wish for"
now this journey is getting lonely without my MJ-senior.
All the best for him in NTU TCM.

just when we all thought GSS is affected by the economic slump,
i managed to shop for a dress in 10mins.
its another "little black dress". my second

i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
nothing excites me this much.

dumb dumb wants gum gum with rum rum for his bum bum.

2009-07-02T06:26:00.000-07:00

we had Sushi Tei for team lunch on wed.
there goes my 4-5hours pay.
and the golden roll never fails.

bumped into louis on my way to the washroom.
i went "Eh? how come u still around?"
hadnt been seeing him for the past week at work, though our offices are just next door to each other...
Lol! not very kind of me...
but he went "oh, very soon very soon"
*faints*
i do hope he gets his much anticipated early release.

zac was really funny.
he came over and sat next to me and asked about my online shop.
and promised to patronise (i didnt force him k!)
hahaha.
so he do have his funny side after all.
and oh, we got the same handphone. His was black.
and yes, it look plastic-ey.

was finally feeling the stress in ex-co after waking up one day and realise we hadnt done anything for recruitment drive, which is happening the coming monday.
OMG.
and we have manpower shortage for that day...

i seriously need my sleep.
i've black eye rings under each eye.
i need my regular 8 hours of sleep.

part of me wants to see your reaction.
part of me didnt want you to know.
there's just one thing you must believe.
all of me never intended to provoke.

till 28th June 09

2009-06-28T02:37:00.000-07:00

on a personal note....

dad got me a new fone -- LG KU990R Viewty.
and he got it in PINK colour.
omg.
It can join in the happy family with the other furnitures in the room and camouflage.
it's really tough to use.
i feel completely retarded when i tried replying to Sz's/Gary's sms and couldnt find the "send" button and ended up calling them with the office phone.
perhaps i'm yet smart enough for the smart phone.
Lol.

Month of June is ending... Month of July is coming.
Payday is coming...
which means, we should start planning for the next meetup while we are still rich at the start of the month.
*prays Collage Scraps will generate sustainable income this month too*
the basic pay at work is not just pathetic.. it's miserable.

The news that shocked the world, Michael Jackson's death...
i kinda like him, the king of pop.
his "heal the world" song never fails to touch the hearts of many.
and hopefully the same song will "heal the world" from sorrows and grief as time pass by.
R.I.P. MJ.

oh yes, my contact lens were torn when i was feeling miserably poor.
how great.

attended regular ex-co meetings in prep for the forthcoming recruitment drive.
and the failure of contacting the prez is driving me crazy.

i've exactly 3 months to prepare for that 2 months.
and i'm glad the solitary walk i've been undertaking will keep me well-prepared.
i'm glad Collage Scraps idea is working out,
so i'll know what to do with myself without you... ^^

COLLAGE SCRAPS FRESH UPDATES

2009-06-28T02:25:00.000-07:00

ohhh. i missed out much of facbook happenings.
been buried deep under heaps of cardstock, embellishments, glue, double-sided tapes for this whole week.
First it was Stella's birthday, then Sharyl's and Wendy's upcoming birthday....
Invested much into new reads on card craft and time into the following...

Presenting... Vinyard Garden Series

Made with premium scrapbooking papers and embellishments, with lotsa of love (and time)...

http://collage-scraps.livejournal.com/

Do take a look and tell me if i've improved technically.

Hahahaha.

Yep, Scraps Joy Newsletter #3 is out...

Should have sent most people already, let me know if i've left you out.

this card-making road is getting tougher with creative juices running low.

This month had been pretty well-to-do...

catered to KN's bulk order ^^

thanks dude for choosing Collage Scraps and having such faith in me to complete them in just 4 days.

Good money too before they all went to investing in better supplies/ tools.

the search for a co-owner/designer is still in progress.

stay tuned.

Drum Lessons 1

2009-06-21T06:11:00.000-07:00

i'll prolly be still living in the weekends for the coming Monday.
because the weekends were awesome.

FRI Night/ Wee hours of SAT
we celebrated Father's Day at 2am with a D24 Durian Cake from emicakes, and KFC feast.
and yes, i slept right after the feast.
i can feel the fats

SAT
met up with the ex-co for a morning meeting @ Plaza Sing.
Shopped around for wooden pegs for recruitment drive.
and shop around Plaza Sing before deciding on how to spend the weekend.
bought a mag and his coke.

and so, i became a guinea pig for being the first drum student.
picked up some drum skills, which according to my tutor, are really basic skills (which i tend to disagree).
It's really tough to synchronise the left hand with right hand and then right hand with right leg without left hand and constantly repeat this cycle.
According to my tutor, i can repeat at most 6 sets, which i think was really bad.
hahaha.
i'm good with rolling on snare and toms though =)
we did a D.A.I song (which i cant rmb the title now) at Largo
=x
and my tutor had his concert with a repertoire of songs all at my will, before lesson.
didnt want to under-estimate so i chose all the difficult songs with the insane rolls and never-ending double pedals. =x
but well, he got his revenge too later, that explains the muscle aches that i'm having today.

that night, i dreamt of myself getting lost @ Haji Lane.
Think i saw Christopher Lee in the dream, totally random.
and seriously, WHY HIM?
*vexed*

SUN
cut my hair.
Did crafting.
living in Saturday.
Finished the durian cake.
had gastric pain.
practised the drum skills.

MON (FORESEEN)
living in the weekends.

that confidence.
that seriousness.
you in a different light.

the short-lived motivation

2009-06-19T07:01:00.000-07:00

work is fine.

tiffany and lynn popped by today!
Louis bumped into me at the lift and i asked if he wants to come along for lunch.
and yay, he joined us ^^
some reshuffling of teams at the offices...
there goes Louis to the next office.
and we need to adapt to new people again.
sigh.

brownies

2009-06-16T06:11:00.000-07:00

today was busy.
If everyday could be like today, time will pass quickly.
bumped into this other temp in the office while waiting for the lift.
chatted on the way to the mrt station, and finally learnt of his name (Lewis),
this is the very first time we chatted with each other despite being in the same office for the past 3 weeks.
and oh! he's from MJ.
one year senior.
*
Brownies are the only things that made me get out of the bed these days.
cant imagine a brownies-less morning

Oh! Tiffany and Lynn will be dropping by to visit on Fri and yay, we can lunch together!
was really long ago when i last saw lynn... think it was the last kbox session with sebas they all.
finally something to look forward to.
=)

i need to shed some weight.
trying to cut carbo and transfats intakes.
but i cant do without brownies.

BROWNIES
BROWNIES
BROWNIES
just a random thought... will i turn brown from an overdose of brownies?

dedication

2009-06-13T09:02:00.001-07:00

had a conv with a friend, and i'm just overwhelmed with personal thoughts so i dropped by again.

i've been thinking about how people used the word "trust" as an excuse to get more personal freedom despite being in a relationship.
the personal freedom to go on single dates with friends of the opposite gender.
its just kinda hard to balance a relationship with a closely-knitted social life.
we can never have the best of two worlds,
there are always some sacrifices we need to make in order to receive.
Lets just not get borthered by these sacrifices, and see the sacrifices as long-term investments.
returns are uncertain, turbulences and repercussions.
but we will only let prices fall that much before we throw all out back to the market.
and we will never let the prices fall to rock-bottom before action is taken.
hence, its seemingly impossible to lose everything.
nice thought.
optimistic enough.

Land of the Lost, un-terminated

2009-06-13T07:43:00.000-07:00

jasper and i had intended to catch Terminator today.
tough luck. they are only left with front row seats.
ended up watching "Land of the Lost" on the second row.
that explains the "un-terminated, Land of the lost" personal msg on msn.

was rather entertaining. sat next to this boy whose laughter is truly infectious.
Spoiler:
movie was summed up with many random funny bits and conjoined together to form this movie.
Seriously, we are all now in the 21st century, and the last thing we want to bring back from the past was our fascination with science fiction movies, star trek, war of the worlds, kindof. So the whole idea with a time machine in this movie is truly way off.
Other than that, i truly like the T-Rex. There's a 3D-feel to it. But well, maybe because i'm on the second row.
will recommend this movie if you are bringing a friend with an infectious laughter and who laughs at everything.
*lol*

random ramblings.

Feels good in casual wear~
Feels good to be weekend~

i'm left with 150bucks till the first (and possibly the last) payday.
and GSS is round the corner.
i'm screwed.
*lol*

colin was telling me about his monthly competitive monopoly game.
the game has a time limit of 1 hour.
wondering how possible it is to conclude the game in an hour's time.
hmm, interesting.

i need sleep.
right now.

gets crafty

2009-06-12T00:21:00.000-07:00

gotten half a day off due to some minor contact lenses complications.
extreme dry eyes.
took it out and blindly walk to mrt station to train home.
coincidentally, ysz had half day off too.
*that slacker*

am thinking where to go shopping now.
Dont really have things to buy, just want to take a breather outside.
having a time to myself, away from work, away from cca,
maybe i should just stay home and do my crafts with Jeffrey Michael and aircon.

i've got...
1) a template to do (contact list for recruitment drive)
2) farewell cards
3) banner
4) posters

looks like i've reached a decision.

the living dead

2009-06-08T06:48:00.000-07:00

i feel down down down...
though nothing bad has happened.
the emotional rollercoaster slides back without reaching its peak.
and i cant seem to pick myself up today.
i just couldnt cheer up today.

good things happen when you least expect them to.
the past and the present.
too many case studies, too heavy a price paid
to learn the lesson of "never setting goals to get what you want"

got some rashes due to over-drinking on sat. *sounds like a perfect reason to take leave*
not exactly over-drinking, just more than what i usually have.
just 3 pints i suppose. i cant really remember.
no hangover whatsoever.

i cant really draw a line between slack and exhausted these days.
my tempo of getting things done is getting slow.
i'm expressionless as ever. (though i wasnt really expressive to start with)
my walking pace slowed down.
i'm basically drawing energy from food and not sleep.
i actually doze off lightly while standing on the train.

i need to take leave to get my sanity.
i need to take leave to recharge my energy level.
i need to go on never-ending leave

i'm just thinking my "cant pick myself up" mentality has everything to do with "lack of sleep"
i'm exhausted/ irritable/ frustrated with everything and myself.
i'm lifelessly dragging my *not enough sleep* bag of bones and fats, walking in zombie style, expressionless and a mouth that doesnt feel like talking or smiling.

the commission is just not working on me.
i dont feel motivated.

i haven been feeling dramatically exhilarated for a month already.
i'm sorry i got dull.

the sanity

2009-06-05T09:40:00.000-07:00

TGIF'd ^^

went to work this morning with only one thing to look forward to...

which is "after work" =)

met up with ysz after work for dinner and movie.

we watched "Monsters Vs Aliens"... okay, we arent very sane people to start with.

and oh! we love Bob =) sucha cutie.

the movie was dumbfun.

as all lazy people, we cabbed home.

YAY

got a bulk order for birthday cards (X10) from KahNing.

Thanks bud (though he wouldnt be reading this)

some extra pocket money before payday.... ^^

The underpass from Orchard MRT to wisma (near forever 21) is now ready.

now the journey to ngee ann city seemed so much shorter and birds-free...

P.S. kosin u can consider using this underpass when u are shopping at orchard. =)

GSS is here.

i'm thinking of getting... ...

# an acoustic-electric

# new earpiece or ipod classic

# more clothes

SHOPPING BUDDY NEEDED AFTER PAYDAY =)

i miss school

Living Hell

2009-06-04T06:13:00.000-07:00

Post Exam Activity - Living Hell.

i couldnt agree more with Man Ning's new blog post.
"feel extremely tired at doing the slightest thing"
This is bad, cuz i hadda be on the phone talking all the time.
I seldom talk during lunch these days, thats the only "rest period"
and i've been coughing.
*feel the need to take leave every now and then"
but there's always a stupid form to pen in "reasons for leave"
where i can never write "i'm sick of work"
why dont SIM-UOL/RMIT Recruitment Drive and Orientation come earlier?
*sigh*

It's getting harder to find reasons to smile these days
It's even harder to smile like you mean it.
the half-hearted smile

"Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional"
I've been trying to grill this to my head every single morning, every single time i see my reflection in the mirror, every single minute at work.
Maybe i should just tattoo the words to my arm, prolly easier to have it "imprinted" to the body than to fool the brain.

i miss school

its 2130. and i cant take it anymore.
day four of living hell.

Lovely surprise.

2009-06-02T07:54:00.000-07:00

POST EXAM ACTIVITY - CLUB MEETING & LOVELY SURPRISE

OMG
they say rare things happen once in a blue moon.
i'm just thinking i might be seeing a blue sun tmr morning
cuz mr ysz has gotten a facebook a/c
totally unexpected.
and he left me a wall post which i'm now half doubting the owner of that a/c
i totally cant believe it.
he's like Man Ning - the *I'll never join the trend and get a FB a/c"
and he just suddenly join FB.
okay maybe this is an inside joke... u just spend 30seconds reading it and wondering why you should be equally surprised.
anyway, just wondering how long his fb a/c will last before it vanishes like his friendster a/c
but again, that was a lovely surprise to the otherwise dull night.
^^

met up with Jarren, KahNing, Weisi over dinner @ bugis to discuss about the club.
turned out to be totally hilarious.
i'm looking forward to our next meeting ^^
oh yah, happened to see Huiyan @ bugis too with next block neighbour Heem Mei.
Coincidences.

economy must have been bad.
there arent many good temp/ holiday jobs around.
hope i can find something decent for Shane buddy.

now i need sleep.
tatas

POST EXAM ACTIVITY - Misplaced my armour and Lost competitiveness

2009-06-01T06:17:00.000-07:00

POST EXAM ACTIVITY - Misplaced my armour and Lost competitiveness

huge discovery today.

she lost her competitive self to the slack school life.
she didnt cared for the commission anymore.
she didnt cared if she has any sales projections.
she didnt cared if she makes money for her mentor.
she wished that she would be fired like tmr when today's only her first day of work.
whatever happened to her "i love sales job, commission motivates me" talk?

today i misplaced my armour
i cant find it.
i want it back.
cuz its dear.
cuz its essential
cuz its necessary.
cuz i cant do without it.

pat is really sweet.
he asked about my first day at work.
i guess i gave him a shock with my "i wanna cry" answer
then he...
---> Huh? what happened?
---> They bully you?
---> Aiyah its always like that when u go work
---> no matter how stupid and crappy they are, u still have to listen to them
---> chill man, handle it slowly ya. it's just your first day...

pat is really nice.

i'll find my armour by tmr.

... POST-EXAM ACTIVITY SIX: popping pills

2009-05-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

anyway, here's the thing.
i was ranting to my sis how i've a dozen things to do this week
to have a proper closure to the holidays...
and who knows,
it rained heavily on monday when i was about to go out. thunderstorms and all
Tue-the coming sunday: fever, flu, cough, throat infection.
AWESOME
(sigh)

back to the story....
so i was saying i was ranting to my sis...
and i briefly mentioned i'm dying to watch terminator salvation.
and *handphone rings*
--> hey bud, any plans later?
me: hahaha, i'm quarantined at home, having fever. lol
--> oh okay. haha, nvm wanna ask if you wanna watch terminator salvation.
AWESOME
(sigh)

people who dont plan, plan to fail.
then vice versa, shouldnt people who plan, plan to succeed?
Lesson Learnt: things dont always work the "vice versa" way

NOW WHAT?
club meeting at 7pm.
the last last thing on my mind came to realise.

there are people who say "troubles dont come alone"
LISTEN TO THEM!
thats damn true.
thats why we dont normally spell trouble but troubles

my current state (if you really want to know)
thought: now i need to get that ice pack
*stroll*
*opens fridge door*
EH?! where is it?
*asks mum*
mum said: it's already round your head

i didnt come online to seek for empathy
so dont be mistaken.
so i'll just quietly come and quietly leave
and let things lie.

WOW.
i've just "seen the other side" of FY
i'm impressed.
i've always known him as somebody who have/ makes a lot of fun.
he finally knocked some sense into me today. non-literal of course.
we actually had some serious talks! WOW
and the things he brought up reminded me of the only resolution i made to myself (which nobody knows, i guess...)... which is.
Start Living For Myself.

seriously, so what if i could end up with a lower salary or just a basic pay?
so what if i ended up working somewhere like science park?
so what if forged ties break?
we need a couple of wrong turns to find the right way.
and we need to see the world more to make the right choice.
and i dont have many chances of making wrong turns.
now is the time.

and who says they will definitely go wrong?
there's something i kept shut about.
and that is i totally regretted signing the contract that time RIGHT AFTER i reached home.
and woot, it turned good.

FY is right, now is the time.
And i'm sure she will understand.
this is the best for me.

now there's only ONE right thing to do tomorrow.

thanks FY. ^^

whatever

2009-05-26T00:08:00.000-07:00

My holidays are ending soon.
six days more to working life.
corporate wear makes a re-appearance in the closet
and i'm feeling really down down down.
lets hope for good pay, good commission rates and less stress this time.
which is highly unlikely, impossible to be exact

Nevertheless, i hope we can all plan for more after-work activities.
you know, timbre, pool, kbox, dinner, movies, etc.
for now, LETS WORK HARD TO FUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT

i should really go get my guitar this week (by myself)
It really sucks to be dependent on people.
I mean, when you offered to lend a helping hand in the choosing process, you jolly well keep that promise
i'm really tired of you asking for reminders and personally i feel you are making me look desperate.
you jolly well know that i hate feeling like this.
and you know i wouldnt have to ask anyone if i am fully capable of choosing a good one.
so for these days, lets keep a distance.

maybe you were plain forgetful.
maybe i didnt deserve one of your weekends.
maybe i'm oversensitive.
whatever.

Post Exam Activity Five - Desperate Housewives Season Five.

i'm running out of time
i should go visit Da Vinci Exhibition tomorrow.
i should go watch Angels & Demons
I should go re-watch Night at The Museum 2
I should register for gym classes
i should go sign up for guitar class
i should go for guitar tryout
i should reset the biological clock
i should take back my corporate wear from my sis's wardrobe.

i guess i'm not ready for work.

Distant World: Music From Final Fantasy

2009-05-23T08:06:00.000-07:00

Highlights From Distant Worlds: Music From Final Fantasy

ABOUT
Distant Worlds: music from FINAL FANTASY commemorating the 20th anniversary of FINAL FANTASY. Featuring the music of Japanese video game composer Nobuo Uematsu and conducted by Grammy award-winner Arnie Roth.

The award-winning music from SQUARE ENIX's world-renowned FINAL FANTASY video game series performed by the full orchestra and the state of the art videos and art stills shown on massive screens will highlight the games most memorable sequences and thrill audiences.

Coupled with Victoria Chorale (form VJC) and Vocal Consort.

Guest Performers
Anna Koor Chooi Choo
- Mezzo-Soprano

Kee Loi Seng
- Tenor

William Lim
- Baritone

Repertorie
FF VIII: Liberi Fatali
FF X: To Zanarkand
FF VIII: Don't Be Afraid
FF VII: Aerith's Theme
FF I-III: Medley 2002
FF V: Dear Friends
FF IX: Vamo' alla Flamenco
FF XI: Raonafaure
FF Series: Main Theme

Intermission

FF VII: Opening - Bombing Mission
FF VIII: Fisherman's Horizon
FF XI: Memoro de la Stono - Distant Worlds
FF IV: Theme of Love
FF series: Swing de Chocobo
FF VIII: Love Grows
FF VI: Opera "Maria and Draco"

Encore
Eyes on Me
One Winged Angel

LineUp:
Singapore Festival Orchestra
Victoria Chorale
Vocal Consort

Personal Views.
Impressive. There are only 3 trumpets but yet the sound was "gigantuan" AWESOME guest principal trumpeter there! When he did the Chocobo theme, there was a very bright chirpy sound, despite with the mute on... impressed impressed. His other solos were awesome too. Very neat tongue-ing and there were many on-the-verge-of-cracking notes which i've always wanted to do... Flutes were loud too though there are only 2-3 of them... Yep, Piccolo has his on-the-verge-of-cracking notes too... Oboes (2) were particularly impressive, as though it was "telling stories". Piano is fine, wasnt particularly impressed. Trombone (3) was strong, neat, big-sounding notes too, very "warm" sound... Band was pretty small (though plentiful of violins, cello and viola) but it sounded like some 50-70people band. Perhaps good acoustics of Esplanade Concert Hall helped in amplifying the sounds.... Shant comment on winds/ percussion since i wouldnt make a good reviewer anyway.

And guess what? Nobuo Uematsu was THERE IN PERSON. He was really comical. Dressed in simple traditional Japanese clothes (i dun really know what you call 'em), he stood next to the choir group to "sing" one winged angel.

Was really really really ecstatic that they played one winged angel during the encore.
That's my favourite song in the whole FF series
"Eyes on me" was in Arnie Roth's version, not the usual kind we always hear...

Impressed.

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY FOUR - D.A.I and guitar-hunting (online) and watching dumb dvds

2009-05-22T20:24:00.000-07:00

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY FOUR - D.A.I and guitar-hunting (online) and watching dumb dvds

it feels good to be home alone.
blasting D.A.I(do as infinity) dvd on the Home Surround System.
=)

watched Bride Wars and Push dvd yesterday.
was alright.
Bride Wars is so disneyfied.. bringing back memories of secondary 1-2 where we watched Freaky Friday, etc.
*thinks i still have the ticket stubs somewhere*

dad finally agreed to the whole guitar affair.
^^
was torn between acoustic/ electric/ acoustic-electric.
and yes, spoilt for choice.
Takamine, Epiphone, Ibanez, Fender, Cort, etc.
Dont think dad's going to fund me for the guitar...
so i've a pretty low budget (below 450bucks)

after 3 long nights... i've finally decided on an acoustic-electric.
so it will either be Maestro, Takamine or Ibanez.
Though i really want a Fender....
But well, Fender's too good for a beginner.

IT'S FINAL FANTASY CONCERT TODAY.
and jasper's on morning duty. Lol.

Spring-cleaned my lappy...
And omg! i've 300photographs to send for developing.
And i've to spend the rest of my holidays sticking them to photo albums.
somebody recommend me an inexpensive place to develop photos pls.

it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.

Next Stop: Da Vinci Exhibition
Venue: Singapore Science Centre
Date: 15th May onwards.
Ticket Price: 7bucks for students.

feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.

i've a list of things to get...
# Guitar (450+bucks)
# Develop photos (75bucks)
# Opeth live dvd (40bucks)
# Da Vinci Exhibition (7bucks)
# Photo Albums (50bucks)
# Estatic Fear Album (30+bucks)
# Antimatter Album (30+ bucks)
# Possible guitar lessons from brandon gan/ guitar garage (140per month)

...
think i need to start work soon.

planned to go kite-flying with Gary @ the plains on friday.
but well, i didnt realised it was friday till 5pm yesterday...
and best of all, we didnt confirmed the timing.
i guessed he had forgotten it was friday too.
=x

publish your joys and conceal your griefs.
thats the way we should be...
thats the way we should live by...
thats life.

ttyl

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY THREE - Chocolatier + SHIN

2009-05-19T19:00:00.001-07:00

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY THREE - Chocolatier

spent yesterday playing Chocolatier 2.

Pretty addictive but extremely tiring.

Having to fly to different countries to stock up on ingredients...

Coming up with your very own creations...

And yes, they added coffee on top of the usual chocolates...

More quests too.

Will be trying County Fair Tycoon, the amusement park...

yes, i'm really bored.

And i've been listening very much to SHIN Xin Yue Tuan these days.

yea, surprising.

There's a very rugged feel in their slow songs.

Very Eason-feel.

Yoohoos! the Final Fantasy gig is this SATURDAY

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY TWO - Museum + Kbox

2009-05-17T09:40:00.000-07:00

POST EXAM ACTIVITY TWO - Museum Visit + kbox

okay this is really random.
but kosin and i went Asian Civilisation Museum for a museum visit.
we had much much fun looking like tourists.
will upload pics if i'm not lazy =x

They happened to be holding a KangXi Emperor Special exhibition.
WOW.
i'm impressed at the stuff which we actually own.
uber impressed over the intricate designs on the relics.

dumb fun but she really made my day.
never fail to impress her with my randomness and yes, she's in awe with my sense of direction.

Yy came along to join us for kbox.
dumb fun in the room too.
HAHAHA
and wow, yy did sing well.
practice did help after all.

and yes, he's amazed with my sense of direction as well.

thanks guys for today!
next trip(s):
# Final Fantasy Concert
# fly kite
# guitar hero
# peranakan museum
# MINT museum of toys
# royal selangor museum
# sentosa
.... ...
# report to work

okay i think i need to stay home tmr to pack my table.

yes, friends are the best remedies around.
i guess you wun be hearing from me anytime soon.

post-exam activity one - shopping alone on a weekend

2009-05-16T05:35:00.000-07:00

Post-Exam Activity ONE

Went shopping @ Plaza Sing today.
Alone.
And why is everyone so shocked at my random-ness? haha
It wasnt as lonely as i thought i would be.
i survived shopping alone on a crowded weekend.

Okay, maybe i wasnt totally alone.
there are still people who msges, who calls.

So the question is why did i go shopping alone?

i always say i want to experience shopping alone on a crowded weekend.
well, thats the truth... not totally.
the thing is i woke up this morning at my usual time of 7am, and couldnt forget what happened last night.
so you can say i'm feeling cranky, irritable and "best left alone"
and a little emo.
i tend to do more random things at times like this, such as asking people out for Timbre last minute.
i promise i'll try to control my random-ness in the future, not in the near future.

"best left alone" me went home and got a earful.
i dun understand why i'm getting the earful because of my sibs' wrongdoings
i dun understand why i'm being blamed for "neglecting family life" despite being home the last full 3 weeks (except going school and once-in-a-while hangout)
i dun understand why my mum doesnt appreciate that i'm already trying my best by helping around in the house, being really goody-good, helping with groceries....
maybe its human nature - " when we get what we want, we expect more"
i'm really really tired of being unappreciated.

no mood to get down working on the new collection for collage scraps.
gotten myself some more embellishments, craft knife, craft punch today.

maybe i need to get to bed.
i'll be better tomorrow.
lets hope.

yay

2009-05-15T05:32:00.000-07:00

i'm now done with exams!

shane and i were smiling to ourselves the whole time waiting for entry to the hall and the car trip home.
hahahaha.
and he suggested going timbre like now.
so steady luhh!
hahaha.

yea, i think i need a drink.

your news came so unexpected.
you didnt give me time to prepare myself.
now, i think i never want to see you again.
thank you for spoiling my mood.

clearance

2009-05-14T06:25:00.000-07:00

will be doing spring cleaning for my lappy starting from tomorrow...
which means ALL the pictures will be developed and deleted from my lappy.
let me know if you would like to have any pics (via email please)

i've pictures for...

# PHS Kuantan (yy, yuanwen, kokwey only)
# PHS Dining Etiquette 2004
# Randy's Old House BBQ 2006
# PHS graduation service, including pics taken in chapel
# PHS funfair 2007
# PHS Prom 2005
# PHS ice-skating
# PHS NYE countdown 2008
# PHS NYE countdown 2009 (randy, sz, gary only)
# PHS steamboat 2006
# PHS gathering 27-12-2008
# Potluck (potluck clique only)
# Christmas Hangout (kosin, yy only) @ Suntec
# Robin's graduation ceremony (robin only)
# Xy's birthday @ Timbre
# Random takings of school's compound, band

# MJC learning trip 2006
# MJC Colosseum 2006
# MJC NDP 2007/2008
# MJC Jersey Class Pic
# Teachers' Day
# Aaron Tan's Farewell
# Meetup (eliz,yaqin,man ning, linh, jace)
# MJC Prom

# RE dinner-after-work pics (alwyn, gloria, rosey, etc)
# RE dinner after work pics (diana, linna, cheryl, etc)
# RE hangout + Kbox (kelly, josh, seb, lynn, ade)
# RE hangout 2 (ade, mel, seb, josh, lyn, alwyn)

LAST PAPER WOOHOOOOOOOOOOS

random

2009-05-09T21:16:00.000-07:00

3more papers. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

ended last fri paper with lunch @ Tampines 1 with Shane.
we were supposed to relax.
but i think we ended up stressing each other out.
lol.

tried taking bus 27 to expo for exams in the morning.
to my horrors and horrors, i couldnt get on 2 buses as they were already overpopulated.
so i tried taking 88 to Pasir Ris Stn instead.
and i reached at 9am at expo when the paper starts at 10am.
=S

Antimatter did a really fabulous job at calming me down each morning.
I shall get "planetary confinement" next
^^

i'm so over with Restaurant City.

Maybe

2009-05-06T02:44:00.001-07:00

Maybe you were bored, needed some company
and i couldnt be there.

Maybe it was just a friendly gesture on your part
and there were others around anyway.

Maybe i was just being plain sensitive,
Anyway, you did plan us a separate date.

Maybe i'm just finding excuses for you,
and i've no idea why since i 'm not feeling.

Maybe thats what people always say,
whats gone is gone.

Maybe just maybe,
ours has never been everlasting.

Maybe thats why,
what never started will never linger for long.

Maybe memories are forsaken and forgotten on our part
May it be.

the smell of holidays

2009-05-04T21:49:00.000-07:00

shane texted to say he had received his, so i went out to my mail box
and yesssssss,
THE LETTER FINALLY ARRIVED YESTERDAY!
very glad that all the papers are at Expo. ^^

two days to first paper - poa.
i'm estatic!
counting down to holidays.... 10days!

some post-exams activities
# Sun+Sand+Wind
# Kite-flying
# Going obscure places in Singapore with a trusty camera (i'm into photography =x)
# Stayover @ grandma's place, seafood feast
# Guitar Hero sessions
# Regular gym sessions
# Kbox.
.
.
.

i'm feeling estatic just thinking of these activities.

i thought you walked away.
why come back now, twice as sweet?

X-Men Origins - Wolverine

2009-05-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

took a break from all the mugging
accompanied Sz to orchard to get some of his stuffs.
and ended the day with X-Men Origins: Wolverine
i think it was a pretty good movie
Hugh Jackman reprises the role that made him a superstar ^^
And yes, i didnt know that there was such a story behind the name Wolverine. Interesting.
But the story is seemingly similar to another movie which i cant remember the title, i.e. the experiments on mutants/ humans.
pretty worth it for a weekend movie.
-cuz no one else can do Wolverine the way Hugh Jackman did. ^^

orchard was pretty empty for a weekend.
but while you are walking out after the movie, you know where the crowd is.
had thought of visiting yy @ taka, but i'm already back at dhoby ghaut.
Other time, mate!

will work doubly hard tmr to make up for today's loss.

4 days to first paper
yes, the examination notice is still nowhere.

in prep of solitary days

2009-05-01T06:24:00.000-07:00

there are some things which i really really want to overcome.
And if i ever successfully did, they will be good training in prep of solitary days i guess...

i'm trying hard not to need anyone.
i dun know why.
maybe i'm afraid of falling into the world of oblivion
and i've never let myself be totally dependent on anyone
because deepdown i'm afraid of being let down, forsaken, forgotten, left behind.
maybe thats why i'm afraid of commitment

talk to me about your insecurities.
and listen to mine.
we'll work things out, somehow

"Language has created the word loneliness to express the pain of being alone, and the word solitude to express the glory of being alone"

random ramblings

2009-04-30T04:09:00.001-07:00

Checking the mails...
and great! Restaurant City is under maintenance. REJOICE~
=x

This is interesting!
http://www.gv.com.sg/moviedetails/gv_moviedetails_0324.jsp

GV Movie Club presents NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2 Tour with Sentosa. Be part of a tour like never before! This time, we take you out of the cinema! Join us at Images of Singapore on Sentosa for an interactive night tour and be surprised by the characters that come to LIVE in the museum! Hop on Sentosa Express and head to GV VivoCity to end the night with the movie & popcorn combo!

Anyone keen?

7 more days.
i'm glad i'm still sane.

School
had the last lec of year one today, and there wouldnt be any school till year two starts in Sept
GREAT, but not so great.
i'll miss my buds.
but i'm pretty sure we'll meet up for the kite-flying (the-shane-way)
i.e. according to Shane, kite-flying is fun only when you dip the kite line into a bucket of powdered glass bits, so that when you fly the kites, you can "cut" somebody else's kite.
HAHAHA, yea very old school, but i think its going to be fun. ^^

and yes, i'm still waiting for the examination package which we are supposed to receive 2-3 days ago. SUPPOSED.
but again, why should i even be surprised at something like that?

sun + sand + wind

2009-04-21T18:15:00.000-07:00

SUN + SAND + WIND

Aim.
To reminisce childhood. (lol)

Details.
# Venue: TBC
# Date: TBC (16/17th or 23rd/24th or 30th/31st)
# Day: Most likely a weekend
# Time: Morning till late

Description.
# building sandcastles
# flying kites
# get tanned
# great dinner/ lunch.

Things to note.
# sandcastle kit info TBC
# do pray for good weather
# please settle your own breakfast (lol)
# RSVP on Facebook

/edit: 27th April 2009 Attendees Confirmed: Gary, Kosin, Xy, Sz

lalalalallaas

2009-04-18T04:01:00.000-07:00

school highlights.

went for the club's "closed-door" meeting last wed.
was really glad to see the familiar faces - David, Pearl, Eujene, ChaiLee, WeiSi, Jay, etc.
hmm, the new ex-co was made up of really nice and familiar people, so i guess we'll be having lotsa of fun together this year. ^^

last uk lec ended on Thurs.
and yes, with buddy shane around, school's totally fun.
we were really good on Thurs by not submitting to the deepest temptation of leaving during lunch.
I couldnt convince myself to leave halfway cuz i'll prolly cant get over the guilt.
And so, Shane didnt get the "second opinion" to totally convince himself too.
Thinks its a bad idea to seat both of us together during lec, there's always a high tendency of leaving halfway.
=x
I thought i was the only one who thought sengkang is a great place for kite-flying since there are open fields. And then that day, when we were talking about kite-flying... by far, Shane was the only one who agreed. THAT'S GREAT
As a mini celebration after exams,
LETS GO KITE-FLYING!
and of course, it will come after getting Guitar Hero World Tour.

oh, i've just heard about UOL/RMIT orientation dates...
SO EARLY

ever since that meeting on wed night where edmund mentioned about sandcastles, i've been wanting to have a day out building sandcastles and flying kites.
LETS BUILD SANDCASTLES AFTER EXAMS!
and yes yes yes, get tanned ^^

Planting Season

2009-04-16T05:15:00.000-07:00

There's a time and season for everything.
Now, the planting season.
More haste less speed they say...
A test of endurance and patience.

I've set the seeds into the dirt
it's too late, cant be undone.
Watering it day by day, soon the sprouts will tell.

I've sowed the seeds,

this time i cant fail.

By hook or by crook, whatever it takes.

I've planted the seeds,

waiting for a bountiful harvest.

in hope of reaping fruits of labour this coming spring.

rawrrr

2009-04-14T23:27:00.000-07:00

School's been tough this week.
But the company is nevertheless, motivating and hilarious
with Shane volunteering himself to do a countdown to exams on msn, in weeks, days, hours and minutes.
I'll stay away from my lappy.

Skipped half the math lec on last sat cuz it feels retarded.
Coming to think of it, i'm feeling guilty already.
Met up with Sz after his half-day work and lunch-ed.
Then went to collect his speakers and dropped them off at my place
and then accompanied him to Suntec to oversee some matters.
That night, celebrated my mum's birthday @ Serangoon Country Club
How eventful.

Something's wrong..
The things we know.
But we'll not talk about it.
Let alone deny it.
Nobody else has to know.

i-cant-think-of-a-title... exams frenzy?

2009-04-06T08:55:00.001-07:00

i've just seen my schedule for this month again, this time with eyes wide opened.

here it goes...
i'm having 10-5 lectures consec for sat,sun,mon,tue,wed,thur....
so i've decided to blog this one last lengthy entry, and after which i would disappear till end of exams (that is 15th May)

i'm just worried at how i'm taking things so lightly.
there arent many days left till exams, and i've yet gotten back my prime momentum.
i know i can do it, but i need to get down and do it.
And it means not overlooking the nitty gritty details (which kills as proven in prelims)
And it means waking up in dreams to recall work, and falling asleep in the process and the cycle continues.

the best thing i've heard this week: it's never too late to start...
but i would gun down every single one who tell me that, that is if i could.
for this kills every little motivation i have to start working RIGHT NOW.

And at this exams-frenzy time...
i need to get well from the throat infection, and this means i need to get effective antibiotics from another doctor.
i need to stay away from specific people who have high tendencies of adversely affecting my mood. The bottom-line is... i dont need anything else to complicate matters.

i'm so glad that things went well on 1st april.
truly grateful for everyone who made it possible.

its ironic
part of me wants to stay away to keep this happiness "fairytalised".
part of me wants to see him soon to elevate this level of happiness (yet running a risk of him depressing me)
i often wished i can strike a balance in this.
but it seemed i'm not always in control.

All the best to me for tomorrow, and many more tomorrows in life.

weekend lec

2009-04-05T05:30:00.000-07:00

there goes the weekends.
weekends spent in lectures.
and i liked A. Witzum's lectures.

school was particularly great.
^^

lalalalalaallalalaa

2009-04-04T04:11:00.000-07:00

you've no idea how happy you made me.
but i'll stay away, in case you hurt me.
as i need all the happy thoughts to keep me going.
at least till exams ended.

^^

i was just told that my math prelim answer booklet was lost.
SERIOUSLY, WHATS WRONG WITH THE SCHOOL.

20th! future celebrations will roll on but no, we are not going to add on to that no.

2009-04-02T00:18:00.000-07:00

THANKS FOR YESTERDAY

special thanks to....
Kosin, Yiyang, Patrick, Gary, ChekHow, SiewTing, Shaun (Goh), Shaozhi, Robin (Oh)
for...

the senseless and dumb fun @ Timbre till late though you guys got to work this morning ^^
the birthday song dedication @ Timbre.
the cab journey home
the presents and cards/presents-to-be-received (lol)
best of all, the companionship and for spoiling me. =D

I cant believe we finished the bottle of Vodka.
Had intended to keep it there so we can come back to finish up some other time.
On second thoughts, well its possible since there's gary around. Lol.
The scene of gary and patrick playing the finger guessing game and laughing themselves silly was epic-ally priceless. hahaha.
And in the cab, Gary was saying we ought to do this more often. lol.
i think i just made Gary sound like he's a regular at pubs.

was uploading pics to my lappy today. Just have to say, i'm totally in awe of kosin's photography skills. THERE'S NO SINGLE PIC UNBLURRED AFTER THE VODKA ROUNDS. And there's only one reason to explain this phenomenon... yes, she's drunk. pics may be up, no promises. lol

And many thanks to others who had smsed....
jiemin, cynthia, randy, daniel, shirley (ko), tiffany, william, chay yeow, etc

And lotsa thanks to others who dropped a wall post on FaceBook...
jeremy, robin li, prab nathan, hongrui, shengwei, weisi, chailee, david, jokko, peiwen, adeline goh, jasmine quek, yvonne, esther goh, patricia, huiyan, wilberg, leeping, etc.

And of cuz, the family.
..................................................................................................................................

haggard eppur si muove

2009-03-31T06:07:00.000-07:00

i've gotten HAGGARD's EPPUR SI MUOVE
i've gotten HAGGARD's EPPUR SI MUOVE
i've gotten HAGGARD's EPPUR SI MUOVE
i've gotten HAGGARD's EPPUR SI MUOVE
i've gotten HAGGARD's EPPUR SI MUOVE
i've gotten HAGGARD's EPPUR SI MUOVE
i've gotten HAGGARD's EPPUR SI MUOVE
i've gotten HAGGARD's EPPUR SI MUOVE

^^

tralalalala-lala-lala

2009-03-29T06:05:00.000-07:00

i totally adore kosin!
we had such senseless fun that night
that i secretly didnt wan to go home.
*this is in hope that she wun post that unglam pic*
LOL

resort getaway

2009-03-25T02:41:00.000-07:00

Dedicated Post to the POTLUCK clique:

LETS GO FOR A RESORT GETAWAY IN MAY!
meanwhile, work hard and save up!

its a big deal

2009-03-23T23:12:00.000-07:00

MOOD: ESTATIC

Was doin a lil' shopping @ Plaza Sing with mum.
And received Robin's sms which kept estatic still!
HAHA
hope to clinch this deal of 100 cards ^^
And of cuz, i'm reeeaaally grateful for Kosin and Yiyang who had very kindly extended their help despite their busy work schedule.
Thanks guys, you are the best! past, present and future, ALWAYS.

still cant decide on what scrapbooking stamps and ribbons to buy.
feel like getting all of them. =x

now, i need to settle down and MUG

random

2009-03-21T21:46:00.000-07:00

Random Entry

Newly done up book sleeve

Not For The Faint-Hearted

http://collage-scraps.livejournal.com

Cards Collection 1

Cards Collection 2
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HAGGARD

AWAKING THE GODS: LIVE IN MEXICO

i think it was awesome though i hadnt really visually watched it.

Tommy Page - A Shoulder To Cry On

2009-03-19T21:47:00.000-07:00

Please take minutes to listen to this.
I promise, it's not from the metal genre. Lol.

Tommy Page - A Shoulder To Cry On
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-GB8dz-mCtQ&feature=related

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let your feelings take you down

It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you by your side

And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there, I'll be a friend to rely on,

When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.

All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on

Side by side,With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alonecause I'll be there!

And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....

The Memories Locked Away In A Forest Unknown

2009-03-18T03:05:00.000-07:00

The Memories Locked Away In A Forest Unknown.

Clutching the heavy chest of memories well-hidden away from naked eyes
She took a walk to the far end.
The memories now rest eternally in this forest.
No one to tell, yet the oaks know it all...
Passing the lake she know so well,
She was so near, yet so far away...

Sat on a nearby rock, she saw her reflection in the waters.
Gently she let go of her grip, a pebble was released.
Forming little ripples on the undisturbed waters.
The ripples whispered ancient lullabies
Trying to coax her to dreamlands.

She arose from the lullaby
Enduring yet another tale
Dark skies, claps of thunder and rain for companionship
Streaks of lightning lit up roads ahead
The oaks are her only shelter.

She strayed in the quiet cold
Written a note and carefully placed it in her left pocket
The ebony raven cries as though it knew
The folded message wept his name
The night now sets forever.

Morning has broken, like the first morning.
The smell of dawn lingers on
Reminiscing the days, hand in hand, they walked down this path
Now, her eyes on his mute portrait
She wept and whispered "I know..."

She swore never to return again
As over troubled waters, memories soar.
And lips try to form the words "I miss us"
The oaks moaned as if they knew
From there, she cannot bid farewell.

Adapted from Opeth - Morningrise Album

Isolation Years (adapted from Opeth's)

2009-03-15T07:24:00.000-07:00

Along the hallways of enchanted ebony
She sat alone in the serendipity, dressed in her favourite frock.
Struggled a weak smile as tears trickled down her forlorn face.
With her right hand, she wrote a letter.

The writing is honest
Cant forget the years she has lost.
In isolation, she talks about her love.
I know she's aching.

There is a certain detail on the letter.
An unintended stain left by the pen
Next to his name
It must have been a long pause
She knows he's gone.

Solitude is all that remains
Though she wanted her wish her way
Longing to rest eternally on the lovers' shore
With the right hand he used to hold, she swept her tears away.
"We're good" she uttered in spasmodic repetition, looking into the mirror.
I know i'm lying
We know we are done.

Adapted from Opeth's Isolation Years.

Chicken Soup for the Aging Heart Part IV

2009-02-28T07:55:00.000-08:00

You know when you are getting old when you no longer...

# have a favourite color (quoted from kosin)
# look forward to your younger siblings birthdays, as they remind you how old you are.
# look forward to your older siblings/ parents' birthdays, as they remind you that one day (which is pretty soon) you'll be like them.
# look forward to your own birthday, in hope that if you didnt celebrate it, it doesnt count.
# buy Teens/ Teenage/ Seventeen magazines off shelves. You bought Female/ Vogue/ Cleo instead
# borther to follow the trend and change handphones. All we need is a simple smsing and calling function, too many functions confuses us.
# have to read weather forecast cuz your bones are equally reliable.
# watch cartoons and watch drama serials instead, in hope to inject some "drama" into the already stagnant life.
# have to sleep 10hours a day. 6 hours will be enough.
# sleep through the night w/o waking up
# hear your favourite songs on 93.3FM or 98.7FM... but on Class 95.0FM and 97.2FM or even 95.8FM
# shake your head when your mum tunes to oldies. You sang along with her.
# listen much to lyrical songs. Jazz music appeals to you.
# log on to facebook every single day to accept all the nonsensical applications your friends sends you.
# log on to Friendster anymore.
# remember names with faces anymore. For a start, you cant even remember names
# fantasize about the future. Time to get realistic.
# carries a crumpler, but a LV/ Prada bag.
# go out without your makeup
# can get up at 5am like you did in secondary school days.
# think CCAs are essential
# look forward to graduation.

P.S. You would like to think the examples are fictitious.

custom

2009-02-26T01:56:00.000-08:00

YES, we take in custom orders now.....

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cant sleep

2009-02-22T06:08:00.000-08:00

I cant sleep

The Reason
maybe cuz i've exams to worry about
maybe cuz i took a nap in the afternoon
maybe cuz i decided to stay up mugging
maybe cuz i had 3 cups of green tea in the mornings
maybe cuz i decided to recall what i've memorised
maybe cuz the weather is too hot
maybe cuz the aircon isnt cool enough
maybe cuz i had new collage ideas
maybe cuz i'm thinking if there's a next step that i should take

The Effects
Red Eye
Short Temper
Irritability
Tossing and turning(s)
Randomness (like the blog entries)
Minor accidents like banging the head into the freezer door

but dont worry,
i will take care of myself

Moreover, with enough occurences, i can derive a formulae for sleeplessness
who knows, maybe i get a noble prize for this.

still, in my walk to stay sane.
still, trying...

Silence

2009-02-22T05:58:00.000-08:00

i kept quiet

maybe cuz i dont know how to react
maybe cuz i'm thinking of conversation topics
maybe cuz i have no idea how to continue the conversation
maybe cuz we've been through the days where we feel awkard not talking.
maybe cuz i'm feeling insecure

seriously there's nothing to worry when i kept quiet.
cuz its all about me.

Random RAmblings. - a break from poa

2009-02-19T00:27:00.000-08:00

i guess it's my problem.
i need alot alot of security.
and i only trust what's familiar

Quoting Randy's msn nick: Circling around a cycle of friends

its ironic.
The way i guard myself against who's foreign.
as such, they'll never get to be familiar.

I wished i know how to deal with such situations.

URGH

2009-02-17T18:23:00.000-08:00

For the first time this week, i managed to sleep through the night.
credits to the eREV exercise yesterday.
wave of lethargy right after the eREV exercise yesterday.
I totally hate having to choose the timetable
And hated more after i get stupid slots.
LIKE LECTURES ON SATURDAYS AND SUNDAY FROM 1000am to 1700pm
urghsss

10 more days to prelims
And the exam dates are yet to be finalised
arghhh

on the 16th, was randomly checking the school portal to see if there are any notices.
and then i saw "Opting in for written prelim exams, deadline 17th Feb)
they didnt even sms to inform us that we HAD to opt in to take the written exams
And we had all thought that by default, we will be taking written exams instead of online prelims.
another mad rush to send smses to other fellow mates.
zZzzZZZzZZz

Wondering how we will get past eight 10-5 lectures on weekdays and weekends.

i need to take a walk.

Chicken Soup For The Heart Theories Part IV

2009-02-15T00:08:00.000-08:00

yes, the series is back...

I think i've said a thousand times about letting go of the past.

And i think it has never worked.

Nevertheless... ...

i am trying to make peace with my past,
to stop spoiling the present,
and not jeopardise the future.

The first step begins with clearing the inbox.
the whole idea about keeping past messages started with very naive thoughts
... of seeking comfort in those past words of encouragement
... of trying to prove that my feelings has been reciprocated
... to substantiate that it wasnt just an imagery that i had come up with
... a basis for my long-held beliefs.
And if it had worked, i wouldnt be where i am today.

Making peace with the past comes with acceptance.
Accepting your past decisions...
If given another chance, i know i'll still make the same decision.
It comes with no regrets.

Not forgetting to advertise....

Business for the past week has been pretty good with custom-make book sleeves and gift tags orders.
Thanks for the support!
Psst, need a co-owner/ designer real soon

BUSINESS TAKES FLIGHT...

2009-02-10T00:43:00.000-08:00

This is serious business...
Advertising for my new LJ collections, *drumrolls*

Collage Scraps... where best gifts are made

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Gift Tags Collection

Book Sleeves Collection

Do support (financially and by Word-of-mouth)
Psst: Friends are entitled to discounts.
Also, i am looking for a co-owner/ designer to help with the designs/ business ideas.
PM me for more details.... ^^

Doing the right things

2009-02-07T05:43:00.001-08:00

Ought to start doing the right things.

- start studying
- start doing past year papers
- start taking promises made SERIOUSLY
- start going for club meetings frequently
- start treating him/her right
- start hunting for an internship

how sad.

An Early Valentine's Day Dedication To A Past Love, Now A Friend Forever

2009-02-06T05:54:00.000-08:00

i used to think we were similar
such that it blinds me to see that what's truly obvious were our differences

But dont be mistaken
cuz i still love you
Just not the same way as before

There's one thing that will stay
we will still sit all day long
with flowers, sun, rain and moon
till death do us apart.

Like this my friend,
entwined lives, forever.

Nobody has to know.

2009-02-05T00:14:00.000-08:00

Hide the smiles
Hide the tears
Hide the thoughts
Hide the feelings
Hide the worries
Hide the stress
Hide the happiness
Hide the depression
Hide the problems
Hide the solutions
Hide the plans
Hide the lies
Hide the truth
Hide the play
Hide the anxiety
Hide the guilt

---- cuz nobody has to know

BREAK-THOSE LEGS Episode 3 of many more to come

2009-02-02T02:20:00.000-08:00

SUNDAY

shopped around the town area and Vivo with sz
he was a happy man (since he's gotten his Boris and Pink Floyd) but i couldnt find my Haggard.
and he was totally in awe of my sense of direction.
=x

THE SENSELESS FUN

We were like crazy (yet lost) kids playing with the escalators (i.e. walking up and down)
Bursting into hysterical laughter while trying to read the chinese characters on the menu of Kim Gary Restaurant.
He was nuts enough to try Coke+SALTED Lemon (imagine a combi of sweet+sour+salty, which tasted like coke+liquorice... i hope he's feeling fine today. LOL)
And he would love to try "Egg in boiled milk" if not for his test today.
and i think he got drunk of an overdosage of beef... I couldnt find a better excuse for his exceptionally 'high' behaviour. LOL.
Went vivo skypark, sit and watch the sky with an ipod plugged in for 1-2hours.
And he actually suggested that walking to sentosa is a viable option after 5 hours of shopping in town.
went national geographic shop and amused ourselves.

and many many more.... Lol

And yes, i've pulled a muscle on my right leg... I'm on knee guard limping to school. awww.

CNY

2009-01-31T06:07:00.000-08:00

Went for pri sch class gathering.
Lol, i know what you are thinking.
Dun stare at me, i didnt expect myself to turn up until a friend called me (on my house phone).
The house phone hasnt rang for me the past 5 years i guess.
And this friend hasnt called as of we grad from pri sch (7-8 years ago)
And i thought it was chekhow as the names sounded alike.

And so, i did turn up for the gathering @ my p4/5/6 form teacher's place.
yea, the term "form teacher" hadnt been used for quite some time.
Turned up early @ the meeting place with Esther and CY.
Then slowly the rest came along.
Most of them hadnt changed much.
hahaha.
and yes, i've difficulty remembering their names.

there's this particular guy whom i always see around my neighbourhood.
had always thought he was from some other class in pri sch.
he turned up that day...
and i realised, he was a pri 4 friend.
*knock my head*
and yes, i've forgotten his name too.

CNY visitations has always been the same
for the past TEN YEARS.
but well, continuity of a family tradition may not be a bad thing...
it saves alot of time.

on a random note, i've heard CNY 2010 falls on Valentine's Day.

Prelim dates are out
About time to settle the mind/heart for revision.
I need to mug mug mug!

Letting nature takes its course
A slow and steady pace
we'll come to it one day.

CNY

2009-01-27T01:40:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CNY

May all win at mahjong/ dai dee/ blackjack games.
Dun grow fat from the CNY goodies
and most importantly, fat angpows.

Lol! such atypical of us.

FESTIVE DEPRESSION

2009-01-24T05:53:00.000-08:00

If you are feeling really upbeat about the upcoming festive occasions, I suggest you quit reading this entry.

I dread festive occasions. Not only just CNY, but all other occasions... including Christmas, Birthdays, etc. And at the bottom of the heart, i think i know why. It's just whether I would quit self-denial and of course, a matter of time.

FESTIVE DEPRESSION

Credits to BlackDog Institute

The Situation
For many people the festive season is a time of isolation, negative thoughts and increased feelings of stress, anxiety and depression. There are several reasons why this period can increase the risk of depression for some people. Many build up to this time of year with great expectations, only to find disappointment if hopes are not fulfilled. People who are socially isolated, or who have lost a loved one through death or a relationship ending can experience heightened feelings of loneliness or grief.

The Solution
1) Have realistic expectations:unrealistic expectations are likely to lead to disappointment when compared to reality, and can heighten feelings of failure or isolation.

2) Plan for difficult times: For those who expect to feel lonely or isolated during the festive time, plan for ways of connecting with other people.

My Conclusion
I'll let you know if any of the above solutions work.

Chicken Soup For The Heart Part III

2009-01-14T01:14:00.000-08:00

"when he/she doesnt do the lovey-dovey stuffs, it doesnt mean he/she doesnt love you"

Drama serials are like fairytales
Tantalising, teary, dramatic love stories.
There is a reason why it is a love-hate relationship with drama serials.

The Situation
Naively
At times we may expect the little acts of love as seen on teevee
and get disappointed when he/she falls short of such "expectations"
and ponders if he/she really loves you.

The Reason
People portray their acts of love differently.
Be it the "we'll get there" talks
Be it the "want come over my house" invitations
Perhaps to him/her, he/she felt he/she had made himself/herself understood.
Like how we like to keep our thoughts/feelings to ourselves, thinking "it's obvious enough"

The Conclusion
things are better off said.

Chicken Soup For The Heart Part II

2009-01-13T00:32:00.000-08:00

Nope, this isnt another post about his "drift-aways".
He didnt. Yet to, maybe.

"We'll Get There" Talks

In our "growing up and ageing" process
we would have experienced the "we'll get there" talks.

The situation: One fine day, you and your friend sat down and have a little talk over coffee. Reminiscing the past, procrastinating about the present, fantasizing the future. And your friend started to talk about issues on co-habitation, marriage and retirement life and each ending with a "we'll get there" note.

The reason: i cant really think of any.

Aftermath: The million-dollar question- can we really take the talk seriously?

Chicken Soup For The Heart Part 1

2009-01-10T23:18:00.001-08:00

The Book
"Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"
- John Gray

I particularly liked John Gray's analysis on why "Men go to their caves" (MN should be able to "appreciate" at the same level as me)
The situation is where he becomes "increasingly distant, forgetful, unresponsive" and "incapable of giving her the attention and feeling he normally gives"
The reason: Unlike the Venusian who sought relief by talking out her problem, a Martian kept it to himself and mulls over it. Or possibly to find themselves where they feel that "too much intimacy robs them of their power" - the need to "regulate" the closeness.
Aftermath: Hopefully a more "rejuvenated and loving" person

I never used to understand this need for his sudden pulling-away and the sudden closeness.
Now that i do, it brings understanding to a deeper level.
And at the very least, in this walk, i'm never alone.

My set of solutions.
My prepared mind and heart.

The toughest has to be the "wait" and the million dollar question to "who/when/how to break the silence"

Bringing myself back to the true reason for this entry:
I foresee it coming soon.

2009-01-09T17:45:00.000-08:00

friday was fun ^^

tiffany and i walked over to np for lunch
realised it was their open house day.
and they have a new makan place!
strolled around the school
and the ushers offered us their goodie bags =S
guess i haven changed much after graduating for 3 years from sec school.

went home to take a nap before meeting sz for dinner after his class
and went orchard to shop and he brought me to secret cd haunts.
went to our fav cd shop - the "classy" that cd shop ^^
held his "Record Collector Mag" hostage. =x
attempted to walk from orchard to dhoby ghaut
Given that he hadnt slept for 3 days and i had woke up early.
mid way through, we ended up at the eatery near Le Meridien to sit and chill.
Lol!
aint much of a shopper.

jazz music.
curtains.
arm chair.
side table.
red wine.
friends.

wake-up-call-to-stay-sane entry

2009-01-04T22:47:00.000-08:00

*was never part of the foam cans era, and prolly too overaged to play with them now*

emo-ness spread via blogs

2009-01-04T00:27:00.000-08:00

Last holiday before Feb comes around.

blog-hopped while waiting for my video to load
and i realised, emo-ness can actually spread via blogs.
especially when you see your own shadow in their thoughts.

a particular phrase in a blog entry struck me.
"boyfriends come and go"
It reminds me of us. The very state we are in.
Maybe it is not that we didnt want to be committed
It is because we are afraid that we may not end up together and become hi-bye friends thereafter.
We've seen much.
Enough to lose faith in ourselves
Enough to lose confidence in the other half.
And concluded that nothing is worth-risking to jeopardise our current state.
Who knows, maybe one day you'll sing me Herr Mannelig.

i took the other way
hoping to drift away
didnt
hadnt
wouldnt

NYE Countdown 2008/2009 @ Vivo

2008-12-31T22:09:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 2009!

Went for the NYE Countdown @ VivoCity.
with the party clique: Sz, Randy and Gary.
The crowd wasnt as big as i've expected.
maybe we didnt walk all the way into the heart of the celeb.
or maybe its channel 8's celeb.

Anyway, the company was great!
Funny as ever!!
got to see glimpses of the fireworks from Siloso and Vivo.
HAHA!

chilled around Vivo
nonsensical chat with never-ending laughter.
and cabbed home together in a taxi with KARAOKE system!
the speakers were uber! BASS
Pic below, taken with shaky hands =x

other pics with gary~

/edit
i always got a little emo towards the end of every fireworks session
and i thought i was the only one until i read kosin's blog post.
LOL.

till the next NYE Countdown~

LAST dance of 2008

2008-12-30T19:59:00.000-08:00

Dance of December Souls
Last Dance of 2008

Feeling particularly emo
on every 31st Dec.

Reminisces of 2008
*copying koko's format*

For the past 364 days, i had........
-worked for 6 months with the "fun-nest" bunch of people (Ade,Lynn,Sebas,Josh,Jon,Mel,Alwyn,Kelly,and not forgetting Rosie)
-took my A lvls results (and thank God that it hadnt been too bad and that Sz had been there)
-got into SIM and met really friendly people
-missed paintball session
-went for kbox less than 3 times (i think...Lol)
-went for 6 RE gatherings in total
-went for 2 PHS Class gatherings
-went for all the other PHS cliqueS gatherings
-went for 1 MJC Class gathering =x
-hosted a potluck (and we are doing it again for 2009!)
-splurged =x
-been to countdown 2007/2008 at Merlion Park
-picked up a new hobby (collage)
-had my first taste of Martini and Green Monster
-trusted non-commercially sold locally contact lenses (and am still using it)
-strike a balance in musical taste (dark-bright, heavy-mellow) HAHA!
-yet finish Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince even after so many years. *gave up*
-an itunes library where at least 8gb of the 10.68gb songs werent from me, and where at least 2gb looked foreign. LOL.
-yet pass Randy his birthday present since Aug =x
-yet return Man Ning her thumbdrive =x
-secretly made a promise never to go for movies in cinemas after seeing the bedbugs-bitten pic on Stomp.
-been trapped in a lift
-realised i'm not cut out to give tuition
-decided to forward the "grow taller" resolution to 2009.
-been to countdown 2008/2009

For the next 365 days, i will...
-get accustomed to wearing higher heels (LOL!)
-be more disciplined when it comes to school work
-slim 4kg down
-learn to entertain myself (since the fav friends are enlisting.. aww)
-start living for myself
-still let kbox/pubs/cabbies earn my monies =x
-still plan for Potluck 2009
-co-plan NYE Countdown 2009/2010
-try to rmb to bring Randy's 2008 bdae present with 2009's
-try to quit online shopping
-rmb to return mn her thumbdrive
-try asking for drum lessons from Sz. LOL!

TBC~

Chillout - Class Gathering 2008

2008-12-27T20:43:00.001-08:00

went for the poa extra lec.
surprised at the big turn-out.
Lol!
was staring at the clock every now and then.
cant wait for time to pass...

Reached home at around 445pm.
Met up with Sz to go for the Class Gathering together.
24 turned up for the gathering! much credits to Jiemin for coordinating...
and... RANDY TURNED UP!

after the dinner @ Manhattan Fish Market..
we had wanted to go Timbre @ Old School.
But there was a long queue and too many of us...
so we went Alps Cafe instead...
where the whole fun started.
LOL!

played cards, dice
had martini and sips from beer, green monster, margarita-s, etc.
cabbed home with Sz, Gary and Justine.
In a way, its more of seeing Gary home.
Lol.
=x

right up next,
NEW YEAR COUNTDOWN 2009.
somebody tell me how to prepare the mind and heart for school?
lol.

Art teachers in demand.

2008-12-25T05:58:00.000-08:00

Ahh
forgot to wish Sz virtually ytd.

virtually,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY Mr YSZ!

lol. as though he'll be reading this...
Wishing you long hols, so we can have more jolly-FUNtastic good time together!
LOL! What kind of wish is that?

Ah
this christmas... like all other years,
received a card from Man Ning! =)
yaqin claimed to send a card (which was never received) Lol!
colin made a card (virtually) thats pretty sweet of him. =)

dozens of smses (even from unexpected people. hahaha)
but edmund's sms was really the most original one
it goes like this... ...
Santa cant get car loan this christmas, lost house to lehman and madoff, sold his reindeer and retrenched his elves, but i'm still around to wish you, Merry Christmas!
HAHA

... ...

okay random.
was talking about ipods with Sz.
was telling him "eh how come i never see my cyan-coloured ipod on the apple website"
and he said i can prolly donate to the ipod museum cuz its EXTINCT.
=/
and i thought it was limited edition.

--- ---

met up with Sz on 26th
to paint the gift for the gift exchange
Lol!
For some reason or another, i think we should just take a look @ my work.
LOL

---------

till then.

tra-lalalala-lala-lala

2008-12-24T07:48:00.000-08:00

last night was eventful with man ning on msn.
and thanks mn!
i managed to sleep.

hahaha.

got up this morning
feeling gay.
must be the christmas mood

Merry Christmas!

Michio Kurihara is new love.

shucks

2008-12-23T07:06:00.000-08:00

the once-forsaken
the once-forgiven
the once-forgotten

DUG UP.

reminded.
acted nonchalent.
sounded appeased.

fallen unknowingly.
into her arts of seduction.
step by step.
but who will resist?

wEeeeeEEEEeee

2008-12-22T23:23:00.000-08:00

Met up with Sharyl and Cheryl for lunch yesterday
then went up RE to say hi to Michelle, Wendy, Eliz
they are still funny as ever!

After that went Kino to shop around.
the queue was LONGGGG.
looked around for books while Sz made his way from school to join me in looking for the class gathering $4.30 gift exchange.
Finding a $4.30 gift aint an easy job.
THANKS ARH JIEMIN!
hahaha.

so we walked around Cine and Heeren
He got a couple of cds from HMV.
then walked to Plaza Sing where he had caused a "minor" accident to a passerby.
and it was UBER FUNNY!
epic.

had loads of dumb fun @ spotlight while trying to find $4.30 gift.
Lol.
and well, we found it! =)

Aftermath of all the walking, legs were uber tired upon reaching home.
It's kinda weird, cuz there wasnt any lethargy while shopping around.
WEAK.

Finalised Details of the 4'Enduries Class Gathering
Meetup Venue: Dhoby Ghaut MRT Stn
Meetup Time: 1830pm
Dinner Venue: Manhattan Fish Market
Day/ Date: Saturday 27th Dec 2008

Spread the msg. Thanks!

had wanted to place the reservation for 30 with Fish and Co (Glass House)
Called them up and they said they dont do advance booking.
Owells.

the next plan.
live band + food/liquor + friends

keep in view.

2008-12-17T18:02:00.001-08:00

Many thought i've already started my hols.
BUT
am only starting hols officially for two weeks (till 5th Jan 09) as of this Friday!
YAY

Have got a thousand and one notes to prepare.
AHH
And we actually have holiday assignments - ECON and PBF.
AHH
We need to mug for the Feb Prelims
AHH

and there'll be a 4Enduries class gathering on 20th or 27th.
Jiemin will keep us informed via email.

and oh! there's Mr YSZ's birthday

Christmas's coming.
What are your plans?

RE Gathering

2008-12-15T18:44:00.001-08:00

Sunday!

Met up with the ex-colleagues from RE.

Went town

Sebas, Josh, Xiangling, Ade, Kelly

FUNNY AS EVER COMPANY!

Went for kbox session @ Cine, dinner @ Ajisen, Dessert @ Haagen Dazs

Meet up soon again!

THE very much awaited and anticipated POTLUCK

2008-12-14T22:59:00.000-08:00

Got up @ 0730am.

I must have been really excited about it.

Helped around in the kitchen with the desserts, the pineapple rice and the cut fruits.

Even though we were supposed to do the cooking ourselves...

budden, other than siewting, the rest sought help from the mothers.

LOL.

Then Pat,Robin,Kosin gang texted that they will be late.

So went to pick up Dan, Gary and Chekhow @ the interchange.

then later kosin, yiyang, shirmain and siewting came along.

then pat and robin.

we played mahjong, tai dee, jenga, cards and THE game.

Kosin they all were watching SAW III.

And Dan was telling all his camp stories.

LOL.

The game was the ultimate.

will just the pics do the talking.

Finally, the group photos.

Lastly, would like to thank them for being such great guests and finishing up all the food!

HAHA.

Lets do it again next year!

lalalalalalalalallalalalala

2008-12-12T06:22:00.000-08:00

Today has been pretty fruitful.

Went for lec in the morn w/o Tiff since she's sick.
TC kays!
Lec was alright but a test will be coming up.

Initial Plan.
1) Was supposed to meet Sharyl for lunch (but she's having biz meeting and so it was postponed to maybe Monday)
2) After lunch, was supposed to meet Sz for last min potluck shopping

Change of Plan.
So, met up with Sz for lunch @ AMK Hub.
then headed off to rip from his "PRECIOUS". =)
where we were totally won over by his mighty speakers.
Then he came over my place for me to put down/ pick up some stuff before heading to Giant Tampines to get the remaining Potluck stuff.
Gotten the stuff, then had dinner @ CP Mac.

The Mega Mcspicy was UBER spicy.
got a feeling that i might lose my voice (again).
Noooooooo pls. I need the vocals for tmr and Sunday.
Gulped cups of plain water + vit c tablets.

and sooooo
POTLUCK'S TMR
POTLUCK'S TMR
POTLUCK'S TMR
POTLUCK'S TMR
POTLUCK'S TMR
POTLUCK'S TMR
POTLUCK'S TMR

will be taking plenty of pics.
blog again till then!

HANGOUT

2008-12-06T23:36:00.000-08:00

HAHA

yesterday was fun with Kosin and Yy.

was online in the morning checking out weekend bazaars (though not something that i do every weekend)

Came across a number of events.

1) B&J Chunk Fest @ Fort Canning Green

2) Fossil Sale @ Suntec Convention

3) Borders Sale @ Expo

4) Fox Sale @ WingTai Ind Centre

5) Blue Canyon Co Annual Sale @ Grand Plaza Park Hotel

And so, pm to date kosin.

So we met up @ CityHall MRT

Went for the Blue Canyon Co. Annual Sale.

A*F, Junk Food, etc.

But doesnt really suit us.

Shopped ard Marina and Citylink for Kosin's shoes (still cant find suitable ones. lol), bought a shirt

Then Yy came along to join us

Dined @ Ministry of Food

The Ramen was good.............

Had senseless fun with the dessert and the "video-purpose"

Went Esplanade, watched a performance and sat @ the roof terrace to talk LIFE
LOL.

The Christmas Tree @ Suntec was pretty!

Let the pics do the talking.

It's kind of a coincidence where the three of us will always meet up during the Christmas season!

Gathering n Appreciation Night

2008-12-01T23:46:00.000-08:00

Finally turned up for the Gathering and Appreciation Night on Wed night in school.
Jokko was nice enough to go school early (LOL, i bet he's afraid i fly kite again)
saw a couple of familiar faces - Clara, Jokko, David, Liyi, Chai Lee, Poniman, Eujene, Edmund.
It's kinda funny.

At every meeting we attend, we had to do self-intro and play ice-breakers, cuz we are constantly seeing new faces. It's not that the club's having more and more people joining, it's because of people who are like me - turned up for one and mia the whole month. =x
Anyway, ice-breakers were balls of fun!
We had this egg-protector game where we had to drop an egg from 4th storey and not break it.
Supplied with newspaper scraps, straws, rafia and toothpick.
Much Credits to Colin (who was invited by Eujene for this gathering) and GuCheng for the idea.
we won (much to our surprise too) =)
and Ben's really cute. =x LOL!

Took a bus to dover mrt with chai lee to head home.
Train-ed home then.
Colin was pretty nice to entertain me on my journey.
hahaha

Was randomly telling friends about the Starbucks event.
And so, Sebas was saying he's meeting up his mentor on next wed.
What a coincidence! I'm meeting my mentor too next fri.
hahaha.

Pals in poly having exam frenzy
where sz, yy, pat went bonkers! =x
All the best for the exams!

Ohh.
Just another week to Potluck!
=)
i've yet get the supplies. =x
and am praying hard for sz as well for his ftt.
HAHA.

Talking about coincidences

2008-12-01T05:52:00.001-08:00

Last Weekend.
was very well-spent.
bumming ard at home and trying to catch up with the overdued econ tutorial.
how fun.

Went Chomp Chomp for dinner with the cousins (:
and guess who i saw....
I saw Fabian and Sebas!
This is weird, but i've got a feeling that I would bump into Sebas before it really did happened.
Anyway, the food is awesome as ever!
Maybe we should go there for dinner after the potluck thingy.
=)

It's December already.
And according to the UOL study strategies book.
We ought to start doing papers!
omg.
But i'm already in a Christmas mood~
*Soon it will be Christmas Day*

Eventful

2008-11-28T18:42:00.000-08:00

yesterday was pretty eventful.

lunch-ed with Tiffany @ Mega after class.
Sat there and chatted with her from 12 till 2pm.
hahaha.

brought my lappy to school.
to keep me company @ Tay Eng Soon Library while waiting for Yy's event to start.
Tried to load Southpark videos, and it wouldnt load. =/
And everyone else in the library were MUGGING.
i can foresee my year 2- life.
Lol.
Anyway, stayed there and blog-hopped, read CNA, BBC, Forbes, Economist.
As you can see, i'm really bored.
Left the library at approx 3pm.

Yy took me to dunnoe-where in the school to take a look @ his window display (as above)
Pretty well-done huh.
On the way there, we passed by Canteen 1.
Where I coincidentally saw Sz

Supported Yy's event by buying a shirt for my bro.
Sz came along for the event where Yy asked him to support the event too.
Lol. but it was really at a wrong timing cuz Sz had just bought $130 worth of txtbks.
Anyway, hope that his sales were good.
And saw Shirmain too.

bus-ed with Sz since we are going the same direction home.
Went Starbucks @ CP to chill.

the promise of marriage vows
not on the grounds of love or eternal companionship
cant sink deeper, a need to stay afloat.