yes, you've guessed it.
i've moved.
*enough of blogger glictes*

i'll figure my way, like i always did.

A part of me just died.

i was feeling really upset/furious over that particular sms.
and i think i've just reached my ultimatum.
twist of fate, it's now my turn to disappear.
and honestly, i dont know if i'll be back.

i just feel i cant forgive your insensitivity.
even if i managed, maybe i would live in the haunting shadows of today.
can i really continue to trust?
cuz i doubt i can overlook the details anymore.

might as well.
since we arent really on talking terms lately.
different frequencies now i guess, lets cut our act.
who knows, perhaps we'll all be better off.

the old sayings were right.
we should face the problem when it arises and not pretend nothing had happened.
when we overlook the magnitude of the problems, these every little bits accumulate and snowball,
and all it takes is just one minor insensitivity,
and we are done...

i dont know what else to say.
a part of me just died.

Bliss.

looks like blogger is up and running again.

I HAVE OFFICIALLY ENDED MY WORK.
yays!
on holidays till further notice from school.
Will be dropping by school to take a peek @ the subject guides to see what to take next sem.
hopefully shane can come along, so we can discuss a lil.

thursday.
met up with jasper for dinner and movies.
and we watched Orphan.
omg... its really psychotic,
no spoiler, dun worry...
liked the twist in the story, and the movie created such tension in me that i felt so much alive after watching....
was a nice show, considering its by warner bros.

friday (today).
the team was feeling rather down today, maybe because it was my last day.
spent the day doing some filing, some admin, some adhoc.
wondering why time passes so slowly.
anyway, after work, the team went Carls Jr @ Plaza Sing for dinner.
we chatted till 23:00, and yes, i just got home not long ago.

Finally off from work...
in hope dad would give extra pocket money, considering that i had only taken half of what i usually take.
LOL! how spoilt. =x
and yes, everyone knows where my money goes to....
*no prizes guessing where*

i've been doing much thinking these days, though i've tried not to.
the grey matter overwhelmed.
thoughts of optimism, now a buried past
in shades of grey, no clear stand.
awakened from the deep slumber,
time to make a change.

MOVED

random as always

Ahhhh.
i missed kosin's call last night.
and the sms about the bacardi.
*thinks i need a lil' bacardi*
Lol.

BUSY

continued from kosin's newest entry....
blogger and facebook are still having glitches...

Bumped into kosin and adeline at Taka while coming down the escalator.
then kosin shouted my name damn loud kaes. LOL
we talked for awhile about random stuffs that had gotten the security guard's interest.
he was staring at close proximity...
*thinks he wants to be part of our conv*
lol.

anyway, work is just down to four days...
and i can be back being my spoilt brat,
growing fat.
^^

Monday
was feeling exceptionally hyped for work.
largely because i'm having a day off on tuesday.
met up with jasper after work for dinner and movies.
watched Harry Potter....
hmm, personally i think it wasnt as bad as what i've heard from people who had watched.
maybe i went in with no expectations, or perhaps because i didnt read the book.
and jasper nearly got into a fight. =X

Tuesday
woke up at the wrong side of the bed...
left the house at 0900am when the medical appointment is at 0930.
wanted the withdraw cash, realised i didnt bring the atm card.
checked for cash, i only have 15bucks.
walked home again to get the card.
realised i didnt bring my nric while i was on the train.
didnt pass the nurse my appointment card after i had scanned for attendence.
and the nurse BROADCASTED my name. =/

and after the appointment, i went Science Centre...
thinking novena is very near to jurong east.
OMG, it was an hour ride on the train.
went for Da Vinci's exhibition... EYE-OPENING....
i particularly liked da vinci's talent in the arts.
the 25 secrets of mona lisa, the last supper, etc.
spent about 3 hours in the exhibition.

decided to check out Bugis Iluma.
and i was disappointed. There's really nothing there.
dined at this HLX Fusion resturant for fushion burgers.
sweet and sour pork burger, etc.
was a fine lunch.

All these in one day, alone. ^^
i'm so proud of myself, at not getting lost. =)

pics will be up soon, hopefully.
2022pm pledge moment. i wonder why...

didnt he say he will be back?

Cave-out

Today is a day worth rejoicing.
All it takes is just one sms....
"sorry about my disappearance, i will be back"
No, i didnt ask for the reason, neither did i complain.
*thinks he's secretly reading my blog somewhere* Lol.
Anyway, it feels great!

when we stop asking why, we get the answers
People are pretty much right about the kite theory, cross-referencing to relationships.
when we hold on too tight, the line gets cut off.
when we hold on too loose, the kite gets blown away by the wind.
we need to learn when to draw it close and when to set it loose.


when we quit trying, we get what we want
there's another thing to learn about "caves" --> if you had read john gray's book.
understanding the cycle, not taking it personal while keeping yourself occupied and embrace them once again when they step out of the cave.
the crux lies in how to shorten the "cave in" period.

yes, i secretly wished i know the trick to all of the above.

i love this other side.

needs chinese class

9 more working days.
was asked to extend the contract.
but i know myself too well to agree to this offer.
i'm more or less trying to wrap up my work already.
and yes, i do know it's a lil too early to even start "wrapping up"
but well, its hurtful to contain the excitement.

anyway, back to yesterday
it didnt help very much that he offered his concern for my nasal condition.
as much as i've personally tried to refrain myself, i lost it by saying things which i know i should never say.
dont be mistaken, i didnt say anything outrageous.
but all's well that ends well.
perhaps its a lesson learnt, we should really keep our distance.

was helping my mum to write out her grocery shopping list while she was trying to recall...
she challenged me to write them out in chinese (since i've confidently[now regretably,] announced i'm higher mt student)
and she said "washing liquid" which is xi2 wan3 ji4 in chinese. and out of these 3 words, i can only write "xi2"
and she said "mushrooms" which is xiang1 gu1 in chinese. and yes, you are prolly right, i can only write "xiang1"
in need of chinese class....
i suggested that maybe my mum should give me chinese spelling test on a weekly basis on basic conversational chinese.
yes, i'm THAT in need of help.

ah it's nine, i will get to bed.

day six.
you in your cave.
lets see how long it will last this time round.

blogger is up, but the "image upload" button seemed missing.
anyway... had a mini milestone today.
tell you more when i see you, kosin!

anyway, 10more days to hols ^^
congrats to kosin! she's ending hers tmr!
*jealous*
Lol

and ohh, my vest from the online shop is OOS.
*sighhh*
somebody recommend me some quality blogshops.

i dont get it! why arent the Blogger glitches fixed?

before it's done...
i'll be here: http://oakyhideouts.wordpress.com

i kinda like Daughtry's new album "Leave This Town" =x
And i can so imagine the look on ysz's face
LOL.
but i'm not crazy enough to buy the album.

there's a part of me that is attached to pop,
another part of me attached to symphony
another teeny weeny part to ambient music/ sounds (like water flowing, birds, etc.)
yet someone like this listens to rock and metal.
i know, i'm one of a kind.

and ohh, there's an encore telecast of the solar eclipse this sunday at 1000am...

lets do this again =)

wondering whats wrong with Blogger, everything is in a mess, blogging is really tough.

here's the thing... kosin wanted me to accompany her for dinner at compass point, but i didnt get her smses/ calls because i was in the living room. =x
SORRY! wanted to make it up to her by initiating next week, but next week is her last week at work. hmm, but since we are all in the same school, we'll sure have lots of chances!! i'm so glad we are in this togther ^^

and we chatted on the fone for some 30mins, talked about random things, ion/ orchard central.... and she reacted with "Think you better dont go by yourself, you'll prolly get lost".
*speechless*
thats the 2nd time i'm hearing this today.
no surprises for guessing who's the other...

sidetrack ###
maybe it's part of growing up,
where we now have to weigh consequences before actions.
and we reject the actions because we are afraid to challenge the consequences.
we are just afraid things will turn sour.
perhaps we arent very optimistic people to start with,
perhaps we know too well to even try...

I'm more of a man you'll ever be,
I'm more of a woman you'll ever get...

lalalas

sat
hanged out with ks to shop around. intended to buy a cardigan or maybe a handphone pouch... and ks ended up spending the most.

we splurged on Haagen Dazs brownie explosion even though we were full from dinner.

and its always so full of fun and laughter ^^

sun
caught a cold which developed into a throat infection, so bad that i slept from 8pm till 8am and missed work. =x
on antibiotics again after 2 months.
splitting headache

and ohh.. solar eclipse tmr ^^
maybe i should go on leave tmr.


relish in small pleasures in life.

=)

Something to cheer the bluey Sundays up....

A Prayer for the Stressed

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I cannot accept,
And the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people I had to kill today because they pissed me off…

And also, help me to be careful of the toes I step on today as they may be connected to the ass that that I may have to kiss tomorrow.

Help to always give 100% at work..
12% on Monday
23% on Tuesday
40% on Wednesday
20% on Thursday
5% on Friday

And help me to remember….
When I’m having a really bad day,
And it seems that people are trying to piss me off,
That it takes 42 muscles to frown and
Only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to bite me!

Amen

thE JuLy bAbiEs

did something really guilty...
i took half a day off from work... TGIF'd
=x

was on the train home from half-day work and got a call from ysz.
he prolly understands that i'm a complete retard when it comes to smsing with my LG fone.
and so we met up at 330pm.

went vivo to hunt for pat and gary's presents.
and we went Sushi Tei for lunch ^^
we shared.... 5 pcs of salmon, yellowtail and tuna belly sashimi each + soba + red dragon roll (sashimi over sushi wrapped round fried king prawn) + many many cups of green tea.
it was a 50bucks lunch just for two. =x
we had a mini fight over where we should put the salmon sashimi.
think we can apply for the sushi tei membership and stuff ourselves with sashimi.
and i had so many cups of green tea that he said i'm turning green.
lol.

ysz suggested taking a bus to orchard and changing a train to Raffles Place.
we said "eh great! NR6 goes to orchard!"
then we sat and waited for NR6 for about 15mins.
to realise....................
NR = Night Rider.
OMG
then we hopped on to this other bus to orchard.

then after some time...
me "errrr.... where are we?"
ysz looks around.... "errrr..... river valley?"
and we laughed like mad.
kosin smsed "i reached already"
=x.

minds cafe.
yes, long lost randy did come after all. ^^
Lol.
we bought Pat a RiverIsland belt, a Bacardi for Gary.
Lol.
it was insanely fun till 1200am!
and yes, we cabbed home =x

Thanks for showing up!
Kosin, Shaozhi, Gary, Patrick, Robin, Randy, Shaun, Wenhui, Alvina.

brb... i need to do my billing to calculate my total expenditure yesterday.
dreads~~~~~~~~~~~




you shouldnt have asked.
so you'll never have to know.
but if so, i'll never get to see how much i mattered to you.

the change in atmosphere,
your change in expressions,
made me extremely overjoyed but nevertheless guilty at soul.

your little gestures.
and your little compromises.
i'll appreciate and treasure them all.

;)

lalala

kosin is indeed one true friend.
one who can recognise my handwriting on the SIP Poster.
lol.

okay, i've got 74 mails in my inbox UNREAD.
apparently LKW's album of old sec sch pics generated an uproar
comments from even from the least expected people...
and least expected comments.
lol.

i'm on half day tmr~~~
woohoos.
did somebody say "SLACK" ?
you are so damn right.

everything's not lost

i think i've hanging out with the wrong gang...
i'm kinda retarded these days.
i need new friends.
LOL
*just kidding!*

gotten man ning and kosin's smses this morning to ask if i was at the orientation today.
and i hadda admit, i thought yesterday was for uol and rmit for today.
got it mixed up =x
and oh, did i say that Liting (PHS) and Joyce (PHS) are joining sim too?
like wow, it's going to turn out to be a mini phs gathering there.
but again, since kosin and i werent exactly much acquaintances with them, so i guess life in sim just goes on normal for me.
and oh, i think i should intro man ning to kosin and vice versa...
so they can meet for lectures.
=)

wondering why is LKW so free to dig up old photos in phs and TAGGING me.
*omg*
excuse me while i go untag myself.
Lol.
talking about LKW.. i haven seen him in the last 2 years.

28more days to holidays ^^
*cant wait for school to start*
particularly so, now that man ning and kosin are in sim ^^

and oh yes, sip@sim is now 200 members strong in strength.
we'll have a fun-filled time (at least in my term of service)
and oh, i've heard eujene came along to help out today.
that explains the numbers on the contact list.
by crook, by hook or by his charm...
Lol.

lets bade a farewell with lasting memories
good memories of us in my heart
lasting impression of me in yours
everything else is God's will.

weekends and holidays will never be the same without you.

but i'm glad my timetable for solitary days are well-planned for.

and i'm truly grateful that everything's not lost, for friends will take your place.

lalalalas

WOOHOOS
i'm on leave today for CCA Recruitment Drive @ school
bunch of people who turned up for Recruitment Drive (RD) today...
Jarren, Weisi, David, Jokko, Thiri, Verina, Veronica, Alex, ChaiLee, Budi, etc.
slogged till 4pm before we self declared "time for home"
pretty good response.
gotten 50 contact details (which is really remarkable, looking at the "groups" --> not even crowd)
and, i lost my voice.
ah yes, that soccer guy is interesting. =)

decided to be creative about the journey to school today, 156 then 52.
guess what?
i got stuck in a traffic jam @ the expressway along macritchie, for the whole ONE hour.
omg.
and my ysz told me to have faith with buses.
LIKE HOW?

maybe i should try green contact lenses next time round.

things will come to a closure in 2.5months.

gum with rum

wondering if "appearing offline" on msn has become a way of life for many of us.
no particular reason.
it just feels good hiding in the "dark" and seeing the rest in the "light"
its okay if you dont understand this.
maybe i'm alone feeling it.

anyway, omg!
Louis did get his release on friday.
maybe thats why we must always "be careful of what you wish for"
now this journey is getting lonely without my MJ-senior.
All the best for him in NTU TCM.

just when we all thought GSS is affected by the economic slump,
i managed to shop for a dress in 10mins.
its another "little black dress". my second

i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
nothing excites me this much.

dumb dumb wants gum gum with rum rum for his bum bum.

we had Sushi Tei for team lunch on wed.
there goes my 4-5hours pay.
and the golden roll never fails.

bumped into louis on my way to the washroom.
i went "Eh? how come u still around?"
hadnt been seeing him for the past week at work, though our offices are just next door to each other...
Lol! not very kind of me...
but he went "oh, very soon very soon"
*faints*
i do hope he gets his much anticipated early release.

zac was really funny.
he came over and sat next to me and asked about my online shop.
and promised to patronise (i didnt force him k!)
hahaha.
so he do have his funny side after all.
and oh, we got the same handphone. His was black.
and yes, it look plastic-ey.

was finally feeling the stress in ex-co after waking up one day and realise we hadnt done anything for recruitment drive, which is happening the coming monday.
OMG.
and we have manpower shortage for that day...

i seriously need my sleep.
i've black eye rings under each eye.
i need my regular 8 hours of sleep.

part of me wants to see your reaction.
part of me didnt want you to know.
there's just one thing you must believe.
all of me never intended to provoke.