Living Hell

Post Exam Activity - Living Hell.

i couldnt agree more with Man Ning's new blog post.
"feel extremely tired at doing the slightest thing"
This is bad, cuz i hadda be on the phone talking all the time.
I seldom talk during lunch these days, thats the only "rest period"
and i've been coughing.
*feel the need to take leave every now and then"
but there's always a stupid form to pen in "reasons for leave"
where i can never write "i'm sick of work"
why dont SIM-UOL/RMIT Recruitment Drive and Orientation come earlier?
*sigh*

It's getting harder to find reasons to smile these days
It's even harder to smile like you mean it.
the half-hearted smile

"Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional"
I've been trying to grill this to my head every single morning, every single time i see my reflection in the mirror, every single minute at work.
Maybe i should just tattoo the words to my arm, prolly easier to have it "imprinted" to the body than to fool the brain.

i miss school

its 2130. and i cant take it anymore.
day four of living hell.

Lovely surprise.

POST EXAM ACTIVITY - CLUB MEETING & LOVELY SURPRISE

OMG
they say rare things happen once in a blue moon.
i'm just thinking i might be seeing a blue sun tmr morning
cuz mr ysz has gotten a facebook a/c
totally unexpected.
and he left me a wall post which i'm now half doubting the owner of that a/c
i totally cant believe it.
he's like Man Ning - the *I'll never join the trend and get a FB a/c"
and he just suddenly join FB.
okay maybe this is an inside joke... u just spend 30seconds reading it and wondering why you should be equally surprised.
anyway, just wondering how long his fb a/c will last before it vanishes like his friendster a/c
but again, that was a lovely surprise to the otherwise dull night.
^^

met up with Jarren, KahNing, Weisi over dinner @ bugis to discuss about the club.
turned out to be totally hilarious.
i'm looking forward to our next meeting ^^
oh yah, happened to see Huiyan @ bugis too with next block neighbour Heem Mei.
Coincidences.

economy must have been bad.
there arent many good temp/ holiday jobs around.
hope i can find something decent for Shane buddy.

now i need sleep.
tatas

POST EXAM ACTIVITY - Misplaced my armour and Lost competitiveness

POST EXAM ACTIVITY - Misplaced my armour and Lost competitiveness

huge discovery today.

she lost her competitive self to the slack school life.
she didnt cared for the commission anymore.
she didnt cared if she has any sales projections.
she didnt cared if she makes money for her mentor.
she wished that she would be fired like tmr when today's only her first day of work.
whatever happened to her "i love sales job, commission motivates me" talk?

today i misplaced my armour
i cant find it.
i want it back.
cuz its dear.
cuz its essential
cuz its necessary.
cuz i cant do without it.

pat is really sweet.
he asked about my first day at work.
i guess i gave him a shock with my "i wanna cry" answer
then he...
---> Huh? what happened?
---> They bully you?
---> Aiyah its always like that when u go work
---> no matter how stupid and crappy they are, u still have to listen to them
---> chill man, handle it slowly ya. it's just your first day...

pat is really nice.


i'll find my armour by tmr.

... POST-EXAM ACTIVITY SIX: popping pills

anyway, here's the thing.
i was ranting to my sis how i've a dozen things to do this week
to have a proper closure to the holidays...
and who knows,
it rained heavily on monday when i was about to go out. thunderstorms and all
Tue-the coming sunday: fever, flu, cough, throat infection.
AWESOME
(sigh)

back to the story....
so i was saying i was ranting to my sis...
and i briefly mentioned i'm dying to watch terminator salvation.
and *handphone rings*
--> hey bud, any plans later?
me: hahaha, i'm quarantined at home, having fever. lol
--> oh okay. haha, nvm wanna ask if you wanna watch terminator salvation.
AWESOME
(sigh)

people who dont plan, plan to fail.
then vice versa, shouldnt people who plan, plan to succeed?
Lesson Learnt: things dont always work the "vice versa" way

NOW WHAT?
club meeting at 7pm.
the last last thing on my mind came to realise.

there are people who say "troubles dont come alone"
LISTEN TO THEM!
thats damn true.
thats why we dont normally spell trouble but troubles

my current state (if you really want to know)
thought: now i need to get that ice pack
*stroll*
*opens fridge door*
EH?! where is it?
*asks mum*
mum said: it's already round your head

i didnt come online to seek for empathy
so dont be mistaken.
so i'll just quietly come and quietly leave
and let things lie.

WOW.
i've just "seen the other side" of FY
i'm impressed.
i've always known him as somebody who have/ makes a lot of fun.
he finally knocked some sense into me today. non-literal of course.
we actually had some serious talks! WOW
and the things he brought up reminded me of the only resolution i made to myself (which nobody knows, i guess...)... which is.
Start Living For Myself.

seriously, so what if i could end up with a lower salary or just a basic pay?
so what if i ended up working somewhere like science park?
so what if forged ties break?
we need a couple of wrong turns to find the right way.
and we need to see the world more to make the right choice.
and i dont have many chances of making wrong turns.
now is the time.

and who says they will definitely go wrong?
there's something i kept shut about.
and that is i totally regretted signing the contract that time RIGHT AFTER i reached home.
and woot, it turned good.

FY is right, now is the time.
And i'm sure she will understand.
this is the best for me.

now there's only ONE right thing to do tomorrow.

thanks FY. ^^

whatever

My holidays are ending soon.
six days more to working life.
corporate wear makes a re-appearance in the closet
and i'm feeling really down down down.
lets hope for good pay, good commission rates and less stress this time.
which is highly unlikely, impossible to be exact

Nevertheless, i hope we can all plan for more after-work activities.
you know, timbre, pool, kbox, dinner, movies, etc.
for now, LETS WORK HARD TO FUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT

i should really go get my guitar this week (by myself)
It really sucks to be dependent on people.
I mean, when you offered to lend a helping hand in the choosing process, you jolly well keep that promise
i'm really tired of you asking for reminders and personally i feel you are making me look desperate.
you jolly well know that i hate feeling like this.
and you know i wouldnt have to ask anyone if i am fully capable of choosing a good one.
so for these days, lets keep a distance.

maybe you were plain forgetful.
maybe i didnt deserve one of your weekends.
maybe i'm oversensitive.
whatever.

Post Exam Activity Five - Desperate Housewives Season Five.

i'm running out of time
i should go visit Da Vinci Exhibition tomorrow.
i should go watch Angels & Demons
I should go re-watch Night at The Museum 2
I should register for gym classes
i should go sign up for guitar class
i should go for guitar tryout
i should reset the biological clock
i should take back my corporate wear from my sis's wardrobe.

i guess i'm not ready for work.

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY FOUR - D.A.I and guitar-hunting (online) and watching dumb dvds

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY FOUR - D.A.I and guitar-hunting (online) and watching dumb dvds

it feels good to be home alone.
blasting D.A.I(do as infinity) dvd on the Home Surround System.
=)

watched Bride Wars and Push dvd yesterday.
was alright.
Bride Wars is so disneyfied.. bringing back memories of secondary 1-2 where we watched Freaky Friday, etc.
*thinks i still have the ticket stubs somewhere*

dad finally agreed to the whole guitar affair.
^^
was torn between acoustic/ electric/ acoustic-electric.
and yes, spoilt for choice.
Takamine, Epiphone, Ibanez, Fender, Cort, etc.
Dont think dad's going to fund me for the guitar...
so i've a pretty low budget (below 450bucks)

after 3 long nights... i've finally decided on an acoustic-electric.
so it will either be Maestro, Takamine or Ibanez.
Though i really want a Fender....
But well, Fender's too good for a beginner.

IT'S FINAL FANTASY CONCERT TODAY.
and jasper's on morning duty. Lol.

Spring-cleaned my lappy...
And omg! i've 300photographs to send for developing.
And i've to spend the rest of my holidays sticking them to photo albums.
somebody recommend me an inexpensive place to develop photos pls.

it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.

Next Stop: Da Vinci Exhibition
Venue: Singapore Science Centre
Date: 15th May onwards.
Ticket Price: 7bucks for students.

feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.

i've a list of things to get...
# Guitar (450+bucks)
# Develop photos (75bucks)
# Opeth live dvd (40bucks)
# Da Vinci Exhibition (7bucks)
# Photo Albums (50bucks)
# Estatic Fear Album (30+bucks)
# Antimatter Album (30+ bucks)
# Possible guitar lessons from brandon gan/ guitar garage (140per month)

...
think i need to start work soon.

planned to go kite-flying with Gary @ the plains on friday.
but well, i didnt realised it was friday till 5pm yesterday...
and best of all, we didnt confirmed the timing.
i guessed he had forgotten it was friday too.
=x

publish your joys and conceal your griefs.
thats the way we should be...
thats the way we should live by...
thats life.

ttyl

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY THREE - Chocolatier + SHIN

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY THREE - Chocolatier

spent yesterday playing Chocolatier 2.

Pretty addictive but extremely tiring.

Having to fly to different countries to stock up on ingredients...

Coming up with your very own creations...

And yes, they added coffee on top of the usual chocolates...

More quests too.

Will be trying County Fair Tycoon, the amusement park...

^^

yes, i'm really bored.

And i've been listening very much to SHIN Xin Yue Tuan these days.

yea, surprising.

There's a very rugged feel in their slow songs.

Very Eason-feel.

Yoohoos! the Final Fantasy gig is this SATURDAY

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY TWO - Museum + Kbox

POST EXAM ACTIVITY TWO - Museum Visit + kbox

okay this is really random.
but kosin and i went Asian Civilisation Museum for a museum visit.
we had much much fun looking like tourists.
will upload pics if i'm not lazy =x

They happened to be holding a KangXi Emperor Special exhibition.
WOW.
i'm impressed at the stuff which we actually own.
uber impressed over the intricate designs on the relics.

dumb fun but she really made my day.
never fail to impress her with my randomness and yes, she's in awe with my sense of direction.

Yy came along to join us for kbox.
dumb fun in the room too.
HAHAHA
and wow, yy did sing well.
practice did help after all.

and yes, he's amazed with my sense of direction as well.

thanks guys for today!
next trip(s):
# Final Fantasy Concert
# fly kite
# guitar hero
# peranakan museum
# MINT museum of toys
# royal selangor museum
# sentosa
.... ...
# report to work


okay i think i need to stay home tmr to pack my table.


yes, friends are the best remedies around.
i guess you wun be hearing from me anytime soon.

post-exam activity one - shopping alone on a weekend

Post-Exam Activity ONE

Went shopping @ Plaza Sing today.
Alone.
And why is everyone so shocked at my random-ness? haha
It wasnt as lonely as i thought i would be.
i survived shopping alone on a crowded weekend.

Okay, maybe i wasnt totally alone.
there are still people who msges, who calls.

So the question is why did i go shopping alone?

i always say i want to experience shopping alone on a crowded weekend.
well, thats the truth... not totally.
the thing is i woke up this morning at my usual time of 7am, and couldnt forget what happened last night.
so you can say i'm feeling cranky, irritable and "best left alone"
and a little emo.
i tend to do more random things at times like this, such as asking people out for Timbre last minute.
i promise i'll try to control my random-ness in the future, not in the near future.

"best left alone" me went home and got a earful.
i dun understand why i'm getting the earful because of my sibs' wrongdoings
i dun understand why i'm being blamed for "neglecting family life" despite being home the last full 3 weeks (except going school and once-in-a-while hangout)
i dun understand why my mum doesnt appreciate that i'm already trying my best by helping around in the house, being really goody-good, helping with groceries....
maybe its human nature - " when we get what we want, we expect more"
i'm really really tired of being unappreciated.

no mood to get down working on the new collection for collage scraps.
gotten myself some more embellishments, craft knife, craft punch today.

maybe i need to get to bed.
i'll be better tomorrow.
lets hope.

yay

i'm now done with exams!

shane and i were smiling to ourselves the whole time waiting for entry to the hall and the car trip home.
hahahaha.
and he suggested going timbre like now.
so steady luhh!
hahaha.

yea, i think i need a drink.

your news came so unexpected.
you didnt give me time to prepare myself.
now, i think i never want to see you again.
thank you for spoiling my mood.

the smell of holidays

shane texted to say he had received his, so i went out to my mail box
and yesssssss,
THE LETTER FINALLY ARRIVED YESTERDAY!
very glad that all the papers are at Expo. ^^

two days to first paper - poa.
i'm estatic!
counting down to holidays.... 10days!

some post-exams activities
# Sun+Sand+Wind
# Kite-flying
# Going obscure places in Singapore with a trusty camera (i'm into photography =x)
# Stayover @ grandma's place, seafood feast
# Guitar Hero sessions
# Regular gym sessions
# Kbox.
.
.
.

i'm feeling estatic just thinking of these activities.

i thought you walked away.
why come back now, twice as sweet?

random ramblings

Checking the mails...
and great! Restaurant City is under maintenance. REJOICE~
=x

This is interesting!
http://www.gv.com.sg/moviedetails/gv_moviedetails_0324.jsp

GV Movie Club presents NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2 Tour with Sentosa. Be part of a tour like never before! This time, we take you out of the cinema! Join us at Images of Singapore on Sentosa for an interactive night tour and be surprised by the characters that come to LIVE in the museum! Hop on Sentosa Express and head to GV VivoCity to end the night with the movie & popcorn combo!

Anyone keen?

7 more days.
i'm glad i'm still sane.

School
had the last lec of year one today, and there wouldnt be any school till year two starts in Sept
GREAT, but not so great.
i'll miss my buds.
but i'm pretty sure we'll meet up for the kite-flying (the-shane-way)
i.e. according to Shane, kite-flying is fun only when you dip the kite line into a bucket of powdered glass bits, so that when you fly the kites, you can "cut" somebody else's kite.
HAHAHA, yea very old school, but i think its going to be fun. ^^

and yes, i'm still waiting for the examination package which we are supposed to receive 2-3 days ago. SUPPOSED.
but again, why should i even be surprised at something like that?

lalalalallaas

school highlights.

went for the club's "closed-door" meeting last wed.
was really glad to see the familiar faces - David, Pearl, Eujene, ChaiLee, WeiSi, Jay, etc.
hmm, the new ex-co was made up of really nice and familiar people, so i guess we'll be having lotsa of fun together this year. ^^

last uk lec ended on Thurs.
and yes, with buddy shane around, school's totally fun.
we were really good on Thurs by not submitting to the deepest temptation of leaving during lunch.
I couldnt convince myself to leave halfway cuz i'll prolly cant get over the guilt.
And so, Shane didnt get the "second opinion" to totally convince himself too.
Thinks its a bad idea to seat both of us together during lec, there's always a high tendency of leaving halfway.
=x
I thought i was the only one who thought sengkang is a great place for kite-flying since there are open fields. And then that day, when we were talking about kite-flying... by far, Shane was the only one who agreed. THAT'S GREAT
As a mini celebration after exams,
LETS GO KITE-FLYING!
and of course, it will come after getting Guitar Hero World Tour.

oh, i've just heard about UOL/RMIT orientation dates...
SO EARLY

ever since that meeting on wed night where edmund mentioned about sandcastles, i've been wanting to have a day out building sandcastles and flying kites.
LETS BUILD SANDCASTLES AFTER EXAMS!
and yes yes yes, get tanned ^^