Bliss.

looks like blogger is up and running again.

I HAVE OFFICIALLY ENDED MY WORK.
yays!
on holidays till further notice from school.
Will be dropping by school to take a peek @ the subject guides to see what to take next sem.
hopefully shane can come along, so we can discuss a lil.

thursday.
met up with jasper for dinner and movies.
and we watched Orphan.
omg... its really psychotic,
no spoiler, dun worry...
liked the twist in the story, and the movie created such tension in me that i felt so much alive after watching....
was a nice show, considering its by warner bros.

friday (today).
the team was feeling rather down today, maybe because it was my last day.
spent the day doing some filing, some admin, some adhoc.
wondering why time passes so slowly.
anyway, after work, the team went Carls Jr @ Plaza Sing for dinner.
we chatted till 23:00, and yes, i just got home not long ago.

Finally off from work...
in hope dad would give extra pocket money, considering that i had only taken half of what i usually take.
LOL! how spoilt. =x
and yes, everyone knows where my money goes to....
*no prizes guessing where*

i've been doing much thinking these days, though i've tried not to.
the grey matter overwhelmed.
thoughts of optimism, now a buried past
in shades of grey, no clear stand.
awakened from the deep slumber,
time to make a change.

gum with rum

wondering if "appearing offline" on msn has become a way of life for many of us.
no particular reason.
it just feels good hiding in the "dark" and seeing the rest in the "light"
its okay if you dont understand this.
maybe i'm alone feeling it.

anyway, omg!
Louis did get his release on friday.
maybe thats why we must always "be careful of what you wish for"
now this journey is getting lonely without my MJ-senior.
All the best for him in NTU TCM.

just when we all thought GSS is affected by the economic slump,
i managed to shop for a dress in 10mins.
its another "little black dress". my second

i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
i'm on leave on mon
nothing excites me this much.

dumb dumb wants gum gum with rum rum for his bum bum.

we had Sushi Tei for team lunch on wed.
there goes my 4-5hours pay.
and the golden roll never fails.

bumped into louis on my way to the washroom.
i went "Eh? how come u still around?"
hadnt been seeing him for the past week at work, though our offices are just next door to each other...
Lol! not very kind of me...
but he went "oh, very soon very soon"
*faints*
i do hope he gets his much anticipated early release.

zac was really funny.
he came over and sat next to me and asked about my online shop.
and promised to patronise (i didnt force him k!)
hahaha.
so he do have his funny side after all.
and oh, we got the same handphone. His was black.
and yes, it look plastic-ey.

was finally feeling the stress in ex-co after waking up one day and realise we hadnt done anything for recruitment drive, which is happening the coming monday.
OMG.
and we have manpower shortage for that day...

i seriously need my sleep.
i've black eye rings under each eye.
i need my regular 8 hours of sleep.

part of me wants to see your reaction.
part of me didnt want you to know.
there's just one thing you must believe.
all of me never intended to provoke.

till 28th June 09

on a personal note....

dad got me a new fone -- LG KU990R Viewty.
and he got it in PINK colour.
omg.
It can join in the happy family with the other furnitures in the room and camouflage.
it's really tough to use.
i feel completely retarded when i tried replying to Sz's/Gary's sms and couldnt find the "send" button and ended up calling them with the office phone.
perhaps i'm yet smart enough for the smart phone.
Lol.

Month of June is ending... Month of July is coming.
Payday is coming...
which means, we should start planning for the next meetup while we are still rich at the start of the month.
*prays Collage Scraps will generate sustainable income this month too*
the basic pay at work is not just pathetic.. it's miserable.

The news that shocked the world, Michael Jackson's death...
i kinda like him, the king of pop.
his "heal the world" song never fails to touch the hearts of many.
and hopefully the same song will "heal the world" from sorrows and grief as time pass by.
R.I.P. MJ.

oh yes, my contact lens were torn when i was feeling miserably poor.
how great.

attended regular ex-co meetings in prep for the forthcoming recruitment drive.
and the failure of contacting the prez is driving me crazy.


i've exactly 3 months to prepare for that 2 months.
and i'm glad the solitary walk i've been undertaking will keep me well-prepared.
i'm glad Collage Scraps idea is working out,
so i'll know what to do with myself without you... ^^

the short-lived motivation

work is fine.

tiffany and lynn popped by today!
Louis bumped into me at the lift and i asked if he wants to come along for lunch.
and yay, he joined us ^^
some reshuffling of teams at the offices...
there goes Louis to the next office.
and we need to adapt to new people again.
sigh.

the living dead

i feel down down down...
though nothing bad has happened.
the emotional rollercoaster slides back without reaching its peak.
and i cant seem to pick myself up today.
i just couldnt cheer up today.

good things happen when you least expect them to.
the past and the present.
too many case studies, too heavy a price paid
to learn the lesson of "never setting goals to get what you want"

got some rashes due to over-drinking on sat. *sounds like a perfect reason to take leave*
not exactly over-drinking, just more than what i usually have.
just 3 pints i suppose. i cant really remember.
no hangover whatsoever.

i cant really draw a line between slack and exhausted these days.
my tempo of getting things done is getting slow.
i'm expressionless as ever. (though i wasnt really expressive to start with)
my walking pace slowed down.
i'm basically drawing energy from food and not sleep.
i actually doze off lightly while standing on the train.

i need to take leave to get my sanity.
i need to take leave to recharge my energy level.
i need to go on never-ending leave

i'm just thinking my "cant pick myself up" mentality has everything to do with "lack of sleep"
i'm exhausted/ irritable/ frustrated with everything and myself.
i'm lifelessly dragging my *not enough sleep* bag of bones and fats, walking in zombie style, expressionless and a mouth that doesnt feel like talking or smiling.

the commission is just not working on me.
i dont feel motivated.

i haven been feeling dramatically exhilarated for a month already.
i'm sorry i got dull.

Living Hell

Post Exam Activity - Living Hell.

i couldnt agree more with Man Ning's new blog post.
"feel extremely tired at doing the slightest thing"
This is bad, cuz i hadda be on the phone talking all the time.
I seldom talk during lunch these days, thats the only "rest period"
and i've been coughing.
*feel the need to take leave every now and then"
but there's always a stupid form to pen in "reasons for leave"
where i can never write "i'm sick of work"
why dont SIM-UOL/RMIT Recruitment Drive and Orientation come earlier?
*sigh*

It's getting harder to find reasons to smile these days
It's even harder to smile like you mean it.
the half-hearted smile

"Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional"
I've been trying to grill this to my head every single morning, every single time i see my reflection in the mirror, every single minute at work.
Maybe i should just tattoo the words to my arm, prolly easier to have it "imprinted" to the body than to fool the brain.

i miss school

its 2130. and i cant take it anymore.
day four of living hell.

whatever

My holidays are ending soon.
six days more to working life.
corporate wear makes a re-appearance in the closet
and i'm feeling really down down down.
lets hope for good pay, good commission rates and less stress this time.
which is highly unlikely, impossible to be exact

Nevertheless, i hope we can all plan for more after-work activities.
you know, timbre, pool, kbox, dinner, movies, etc.
for now, LETS WORK HARD TO FUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT

i should really go get my guitar this week (by myself)
It really sucks to be dependent on people.
I mean, when you offered to lend a helping hand in the choosing process, you jolly well keep that promise
i'm really tired of you asking for reminders and personally i feel you are making me look desperate.
you jolly well know that i hate feeling like this.
and you know i wouldnt have to ask anyone if i am fully capable of choosing a good one.
so for these days, lets keep a distance.

maybe you were plain forgetful.
maybe i didnt deserve one of your weekends.
maybe i'm oversensitive.
whatever.

Post Exam Activity Five - Desperate Housewives Season Five.

i'm running out of time
i should go visit Da Vinci Exhibition tomorrow.
i should go watch Angels & Demons
I should go re-watch Night at The Museum 2
I should register for gym classes
i should go sign up for guitar class
i should go for guitar tryout
i should reset the biological clock
i should take back my corporate wear from my sis's wardrobe.

i guess i'm not ready for work.