nonsensical episode 1 of many to come

It sucks to be having time off while friends are still studying/working
It sucks to be occupied while friends are having the time off
Can we have our synchronised holidays back just like during high school years?
Just ONCE?

5 days left for work, it feels kindof sad everyday.
will miss those guys back in RE.
6 months there aint a short stay anyway.
so... I think i'll renew the contract.
for another month.
If there's any reason why i "survived" and enjoyed the 6 months stay there, they are the reasons.

felt i've been leading a very responsible life
answerable and accountable to my decisions, my absence/ presence, attitude.
it feels tired and it feels like I'm compelled to GROW UP .
and i'm only a nineteen year old
can i wake up one day and just do what i like and not because i had to?
deviate from reality, maturity and sensibility
and just let me be wilful.
just for a day.
1) grab the phone and say I will not be coming work/school
2) refuse work of any kind
3) call him in the middle of the night and admit missing him
4) drag friends out of their schools and out having fun
5) camp at vivo skypark


i'm just being nonsensical