no promise whatsoever

call me inflexible, but i seriously loathe last minute things/changes.

things always screw up just when i've made plans for them.
something will definitely happen just to stop me from fulfilling these promises.
gatherings, outings, shopping, jogging, dinner/lunch dates, going for movies, etc.

had wanted to go jogging this week, it rained EVERY SINGLE DAY.
had wanted to go Baybeats, Sebas-Ade-Me had last minute things.
had wanted class gatherings, but still i have things on (at least for the whole month of sept, i'm more or less unavailable)
had wanted to go shopping, then rain + family stuff.

seriously, what's wrong?

since i cant make any promises for anything.
i'll give everything a miss rather than backing out at the last minute.
i'm sorry.
sometimes, things are really not up to me.

was randomly asking a friend if he had passed nafa.
he went "yet, but sure fail"
was trying to motivate him by asking him "so, other than the physical part, what else worries you?"
he said "my bed"
Tried to scare him further with "Man, imagine those who had used the bed before you. All sweaty, smelly, and boy, you'll never know what they did on the bed"
he went "WTF"
rattled on "And think, we may not even meet as regularly as now at least for that 2 years you're in there and what's more... i think ipods are not allowed!"
he went "dun depress me further"
LOL.
i guess motivation has different effect on different people.
motivation/depression - an invisible line of difference.

eliz just called ytd about the econ assignment.
and...
i haven even dl the file yet.
great.