NTU

was supposed to meet some colleagues/ ex-colleagues for dinner after work today... budden some changes to the plan... and went dinner with my family at swensens... Man, the choco fondue was so nicee....

went to NTU talks at Suntec today with man ning and Lorraine, got a clearer picture now... saw a couple of people there... jenny, yuanwen, yvonne (PHS), Lynn, Tiffany, Rosey, ShuHui, Zhiyan, Zaiton, takwai, and some phs and mj people whom i cant rmb their names.shopped around for awhile with Lorraine wanting to buy shoes...

was chatting with him that day and he was saying, "I think you should quit your job"... LOL... where got friends ask friends to quit jobs? hahahas... so i asked why. he replied saying that i ought to take a break from everything and stop being so busy and being work-drained... take a well-deserved break... He was right, in a sense... i started work like a week after the end of A levels... i hadnt taken any long breaks... but perhaps, he felt left out in my life... cuz before i even started working, we'll have this "lets go your house" hangout on saturdays... but since then, it's less frequent... and so, he will initiate things lyk, "hey, can give me a wakeup call?" kindof things and then chat for an hour or so during the wakeup call... that is so unlike of him... he used to be less emo/possessive... but now he's like... "hey, heard over the phone u had a msn ring... who was that/ why was he looking for you/ what he wans?" he never used to ask these kind of questions...

people may not understand the tug-o-war of this relationship i had with him... it was a close but not close enough... there but not there yet... it was so close thats why i dun wan to end it... it was not close enough but i chose to continue it... and to make matters worse, i always match other guys to him... and they were never close enough to substitute him... i know it's not right to compare, since people werent born to behave in the same way as anyone... but i just cant help it...

in a mood for heavy metal...

Constantly, i'm finding ways...
and the trick is to keep you coming back