its kindof funny.
how i had never believed that friends (at every stage of our lives) are bonded sustainably not because of the present, but because of our shared past.
its scarily coming true
or rather, i'm ENLIGHTENED.
finally.
late but better than never.

movie-d with Jokko, David and Edmund.
"money not enough 2"
i cant believe i watched that.
and i cant believe Jokko and Edmund can understand hokkien better than me, a true-blood singaporean. (P.S. they are indonesians)
How come there is no such thing as hokkien tuition?
it will be damn hilarious.

and i didnt know there was this much of responsibility to bear.
had i known, i will not get myself committed.
I REALLY HAD ENOUGH OF TUITION.I CANT TAKE IT ANYMOREEEEE..

i'm in a bad mood after all.
i've gotten myself into a thousand and one problems.
the tuition(s).
the social gatherings which sometimes i hate to go, but went anyway.
the forced smiles, the pretense of enjoyment.
i really had enough.

MIRAGE V2.0

I'm lazy to think of a new blog address.
and even if i managed to think of a new blog address/user name/password...
i'll prolly not remember them.
just imagine how loose the screw up on my head is.

anyway, presenting....
THE VERSION 2 OF THE BLOG....
*tadah~*
which is, *drumroll* the same address.
=x

BUT NEVER QUITE THE SAME AS BEFORE.

5 days more...

and we all thought Monday 4th August 2008 is the first day for school.
but to my horror and horror...
THERE'S POA LEC ON SUNDAY 0830AM!
there goes my Sunday.

there's just one last thing i want to do before school starts...
1)chill over dark mocha frappuccino.

went Popular with mum to get school supplies.
i'm robbed of my stationery right after A Levels.

at least now, the mood is right.
but somehow, this journey feels lonely.
It feels lonely to start school at this time.
At this time, people were moving into hostels or in the midst of preparing for exams in polytechnics.

WORN OUT WEEK

has been a really busy week.
worn out - aim achieved.

Fri
hanged out with Sebas, Ade, Josh, Jon for kbox @ AMK Hub.
Everyone was late, and for once... I WAS ON TIME.
so Josh walked to mrt station to meet me up.
the rest joined us for lunch.
Sebas was HIGH, nuts to be precise.
we actually SANG "Mamma Mia" ---> bringing back memories of PHSSB days
and some other KIDS' songs.
he brought a friend along.
Fun as usual, and... Josh can sing well!
bus-ed home, and for once...
it was peace at heart, peace on mind.

Sat.
The plasma teevee is finally here.
but there goes the 48inch teevee.
42inch aint that bad though.
tuition from 0900am to 1500pm.
STARVED.
headed to Marina Sq for the Dark Knight.
nice
no full satisfaction, cuz was watching from the 3rd row.

the aim is to max myself out in the day and sleep real early.

Finale.

In the midst of a transition.
Elope for the future with the present.
Let the past lay buried.
Never to be dug up, never to be spoken of.
Like this, you will never ever have to know.

Each passing scene.
Every single love song.
Reminds me of you.
I will recreate memories.
of which, without you.

Giving and receiving.
Not that I can recall.
Coerced commitments.
Will not bring us very far.
Let's not go against God's will.

Every single poetic piece.
Sings of a heart.
Broken, mended, but never quite the same as before.
Tougher and determined, once and for all.
I will forget you.

Incompatible and make-believe coincidences.
as of the start.
People say opposites attract.
But magnets will eventually lose magnetism
Such a day has come.

Countless drifting aways.
Relentless times we've tried pulling back.
Nothing like this time,
Heart went cold.
Doesnt beat for you anymore.

Silence and more heartaches.
All I can see.
If I continue my way.
Embrace the newfound freedom.
Or simply, to save myself.

Ardous Tug-of-War,
Reaching the end, but pulled back to the start.
Like pendulum it swings,
To and fro, no eventual end.
Like now, finally, a personal release.

Peaks and climaxes.
Sometimes are finales.
Curtains down, actors bow.
Waved the last goodbye.
This, is what is happening.




*This is a last dedication to him.

Yet Another Awesome Day

great company for bonding + slimming session.
went for badminton with Shihui's clique, ZQ, Alan, FY.
ZQ reminds me of Daniel, and how he can always make me laugh.
FY can actually cliqued with Shihui, what a nice guy! LOL.
and Alan actually went Mahjong after badminton!
then went Sakae @ CP for lunch, cuz ZQ's friend is working as the Asst Chef there.
Food was alright, but company was awesome!
The norm - Salmon Sashimi, Baby Octopus, Chawanmushi, etc.
CP does the sashimi better than the outlet @ Suntec
no pics, we looked messy after the game anyway.
Sorry that i trashed you all! LOL.
TRY HARDER next time. Lol.

and Sebas is playing mahjong like RIGHT NOW.
Is Wednesday also known as Mahjong Day?

Straightened my thoughts and moving on.
and so it's about time to change a blog.

Handwriting Analysis Part One - Line Spacing

Handwriting Analysis on Personality Part 1

Line Spacing

# balanced spacing: mental clarity, good sense of organisation, sense of order

# narrow spacing: impulsive, compulsive, poverty consciousness

# crowded line spacing : less discreet, impulsive

# Tangled lines (letters hang down and collide with the next line): loss of perspective, acting on instincts

# Moderately wide: logical, orderly, could be extravagant

# extremely wide: non-active joiner, permanently anxious, absent minded

# irregular: inconsistent

# extremely regular: inflexible, obsessive, strict routine.

...

new favourites:
Theatre of Tragedy - Dying I only feel apath
Tenhi - Hallavedet (The Glacial Waters)

RE gathering

wEeEEEe
yet another RE gathering.
no pics, cuz we didnt take any.
and yes, back to Cafe Cartel for dinner, Gelare for desserts.
Sebas, Josh, Adeline, Jon, Veron, Mel were there.
as usual, it was FUN, FUN, FUN.
alwyn and lynn, u guys missed the usual fun.
no white chocos/black chocos though.
and thanks Sebas again for the Gelare treat!
had a long chat with Adeline, and hmm, we can be quite similar.

Past
a thousand and one ways.
the trick is to keep you coming back.
Present
a thousand and one ways.
the idea is to recreate memories.
Future
a thousand and one ways.
the lesson is to stay away.

belonged

went for SIP Orientation ytd @ Minds Cafe.
Great company, eujene, pearl, anne, jason, edmund, etc.
played some games there.
much action.
left the place at around 2245pm.
newfound squash mate - ZQ

has been reading this days (to get the momentum back cuz sch's starting)
read "idiot's guide to handwriting analysis", "idiot's guide to personality profiles", "The book of Lasts", "Body Language".
Interesting.
Pretty accurate analysis too.

psychedelic Bjork, there's a lingering eerie feel.
and i feel disturbed.
psychedelic souls out there might want to try this :
The Musical - Bjork

chill over dark mocha frappuchino.

anyone gg back MJ to take cert, pm me.

Bottled

i didnt know i can be that MAINSTREAM, as to post my 111th blog entry.
thank you for your support (if anyone's reading at all), but i will continue to bore your senses with some bottled thoughts i had.

random thought
New media (blogging) = more freedom of expression?
supposed, but no.
there's still much inhibitions.
sometimes, even pretense (if there is such a need)
Voyeurism too, unknowingly.
Why do we even need to know who does what when?
New media (blogging) = the safest/confidential way to stalk somebody

Go Alternative

Credits to Kokwey, this song is goodd.
for the 5th time,
What Hurts The Most - Cascada/ Rascal Flatts.
I liked the Rascal Flatts's version better
aww.

The lyrics went like this.

What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

*Chorus
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder, getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

*Chorus*
*and some other repeats*

Tuning in to...
Richard Ashcroft - Break The Night With Colors
Theatre of Tragedy - Mire
Theatre of Tragedy - A Hamlet For A Slothful Vassal
Nevermore - Dreaming Neon Black
Metallica - Nothing Else Matters
Dream Theatre - Hollow Years
Cradle of Filth - Mr Crowley
and of course - Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

lalala~

home alone

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY SEBAS!
he wouldnt be reading this, but this is what i sent him via sms.
"now that you're in your twenties, nothing works better than having this wish from me. Stay young, at least young at heart."
he can laugh at me next year when i advance to my first twenty.
Man, it strikes fear.
hoping i can age gracefully and not do absurd things like "to clad myself in miniskirt with fishnet leggings/stockings when i'm in my 50s"
You will know what i mean if you had seen them around.

Yesterday.
was supposed to check out MOS with gary and dan.
but then, dan felt the company was a lil' small.
cancelled.
and had asked gary, jasper and sz if they were free to have dinner.
all replied late, and i had alrdy ordered pizza delivery.
had Pasta Mania Hawaiian Pizza and Garlic Bread for dinner.
mmm.
but the garlic bread was BAD.
wolfed down the personal pan thin crust pizza in 30mins.

today.
Mr Lucky YSZ gets to go to Dismember concert.
while i stayed home and watch videos.
having Mac's apple pie for dinner
and many MANY thanks to gary (yesterday) for indirectly reminding me that he stays near the famous/infamous Jln Kayu Prata House... now i crave for prata.

to forget is not to remove.
to forget is to create something new-
new memories with new people at once-so-familiar places
the smell of freedom and release.

Laidback Weekend

http://video.msn.com/?mkt=en-sg&tab=m1214293123330&vid=4b841bad-9402-4770-bc93-d35649d3d321

Backstreet Boys Live @ London
PLS WATCH.
BSB - Any Other Way

Chorus
I cant imagine it any other way.
a world without you is only wasted space
You're gone and i'll always wonder
why it cant be any other way

went bugis to shop with mum after submitting the form to school.
i did control my spending. lol.
was at bugis street and guess who i saw.
the LONG-LOST Jiarui!
lol.


for laidback weekends, tune to Crowded House. =)

i'm not lazy today

Linh and I @ Cafe Cartel (with yq and mn).

it's kindof strange.
but is anyone else free on saturday?
hahahahas.

thrilled

yesterday.
I got really really ecstatic.
was trying to nap in the afternoon, then got a call from NTU saying I was accepted into faculty of HSS Sociology.
Then i was like HUH? I didnt even appeal!
no doubt, tht thought of getting into a local uni thrills me.
but again, its SOCIOLOGY (not business) and its a 4 years course.
i've decided to reject the offer.
tell me i'm sane.


one day ago.
was supposed to meet sz to bus-ed to school, as in him to np and me to sim.
need to submit the form.
i realised i had forgotten to ask dad to sign on the form.
so will go down on friday instead.


two days ago.
went out with yaqin, man ning and linh for dinner/supper
was supposed to meet at 1830pm. and i think i dun have to say and you guys will know. Yes, we are late again.
went waraku for dinner and later cafe cartel for cakes.
i will upload the pics when i'm not so lazy =x



the fastest way to forget is not to abandon, but to find a whole new purpose.

lalalalas

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY PATRICK!
Go potato-ey as always!
LOL.

hadda drop by school sometime this week to drop the registration form.
but i'm soooo lazy.
kosin, yiyang, sz can help me drop by SIM? LOL.

the bruises on the leg are getting worse. (i shall not spoil ur appetite by uploading the pic)
i caught a cold.
and i had a lil throat infection.
migraine.

cant really keep up with songs these days, i didnt even borthered to anyway =x
in a cozy corner of the house tuning to...
# E.S. Posthumus - Pompeii
# Dream Theatre - Hollow Years

and people say the first step to forget, is to destroy... anything that simply reminds you of.



P.S. and i hope josh liked the cd.

random pics

Sebas with Jon... doing things children shouldnt ask at all.



Orientation Shirt. IT'S YELLOW for goodness sake! Eliz looked like Big Bird.



Dead Bird on the road seen. Fellow birds (crows) feeding off it, LITERALLY

WhEEEEeEEE

Wed...

went for the COMPULSORY orientation day. LOL. on bus with eliz, and we were LATE for 30mins! Man, the OG was FUN! saw a number of lookalikes, i.e. Cedric, Ben, Andrew-lookalikes. LOL. For pics, pls go to Eliz's blog. I'm lazy to post. =x.


Yesterday...

YAY-NESSSSS. RE Temps-Out dinner @ Manhattan Fish Market Plaza Sing. Food was alrite, but the company was AWEEESOMMMEEE.... Ping Ping (Joshua), Sebas, Bread-Man (Jonathan), XiangLing, Mel, Cai Xian Shen de Er Zi (Alwyn), Kuku (Adeline) were there. Then later, we walked to B&J @ The Cathay for Sweet Treats~~~ Cookie Dough~ The dough kindof taste stale. =x Reached home @ 2330.


Today...

finishing the last stage of uni application (i hope). Hadda head back school on Mon to submit the forms. Urgh, another one-hour journey ride. Koko, Yy n Sz, happen to be going school on Mon? I want some company~ Tuition horror in an hour's time. URGHH