... POST-EXAM ACTIVITY SIX: popping pills

anyway, here's the thing.
i was ranting to my sis how i've a dozen things to do this week
to have a proper closure to the holidays...
and who knows,
it rained heavily on monday when i was about to go out. thunderstorms and all
Tue-the coming sunday: fever, flu, cough, throat infection.
AWESOME
(sigh)

back to the story....
so i was saying i was ranting to my sis...
and i briefly mentioned i'm dying to watch terminator salvation.
and *handphone rings*
--> hey bud, any plans later?
me: hahaha, i'm quarantined at home, having fever. lol
--> oh okay. haha, nvm wanna ask if you wanna watch terminator salvation.
AWESOME
(sigh)

people who dont plan, plan to fail.
then vice versa, shouldnt people who plan, plan to succeed?
Lesson Learnt: things dont always work the "vice versa" way

NOW WHAT?
club meeting at 7pm.
the last last thing on my mind came to realise.

there are people who say "troubles dont come alone"
LISTEN TO THEM!
thats damn true.
thats why we dont normally spell trouble but troubles

my current state (if you really want to know)
thought: now i need to get that ice pack
*stroll*
*opens fridge door*
EH?! where is it?
*asks mum*
mum said: it's already round your head

i didnt come online to seek for empathy
so dont be mistaken.
so i'll just quietly come and quietly leave
and let things lie.

WOW.
i've just "seen the other side" of FY
i'm impressed.
i've always known him as somebody who have/ makes a lot of fun.
he finally knocked some sense into me today. non-literal of course.
we actually had some serious talks! WOW
and the things he brought up reminded me of the only resolution i made to myself (which nobody knows, i guess...)... which is.
Start Living For Myself.

seriously, so what if i could end up with a lower salary or just a basic pay?
so what if i ended up working somewhere like science park?
so what if forged ties break?
we need a couple of wrong turns to find the right way.
and we need to see the world more to make the right choice.
and i dont have many chances of making wrong turns.
now is the time.

and who says they will definitely go wrong?
there's something i kept shut about.
and that is i totally regretted signing the contract that time RIGHT AFTER i reached home.
and woot, it turned good.

FY is right, now is the time.
And i'm sure she will understand.
this is the best for me.

now there's only ONE right thing to do tomorrow.

thanks FY. ^^

whatever

My holidays are ending soon.
six days more to working life.
corporate wear makes a re-appearance in the closet
and i'm feeling really down down down.
lets hope for good pay, good commission rates and less stress this time.
which is highly unlikely, impossible to be exact

Nevertheless, i hope we can all plan for more after-work activities.
you know, timbre, pool, kbox, dinner, movies, etc.
for now, LETS WORK HARD TO FUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT

i should really go get my guitar this week (by myself)
It really sucks to be dependent on people.
I mean, when you offered to lend a helping hand in the choosing process, you jolly well keep that promise
i'm really tired of you asking for reminders and personally i feel you are making me look desperate.
you jolly well know that i hate feeling like this.
and you know i wouldnt have to ask anyone if i am fully capable of choosing a good one.
so for these days, lets keep a distance.

maybe you were plain forgetful.
maybe i didnt deserve one of your weekends.
maybe i'm oversensitive.
whatever.

Post Exam Activity Five - Desperate Housewives Season Five.

i'm running out of time
i should go visit Da Vinci Exhibition tomorrow.
i should go watch Angels & Demons
I should go re-watch Night at The Museum 2
I should register for gym classes
i should go sign up for guitar class
i should go for guitar tryout
i should reset the biological clock
i should take back my corporate wear from my sis's wardrobe.

i guess i'm not ready for work.

Distant World: Music From Final Fantasy

Highlights From Distant Worlds: Music From Final Fantasy

ABOUT
Distant Worlds: music from FINAL FANTASY commemorating the 20th anniversary of FINAL FANTASY. Featuring the music of Japanese video game composer Nobuo Uematsu and conducted by Grammy award-winner Arnie Roth.

The award-winning music from SQUARE ENIX's world-renowned FINAL FANTASY video game series performed by the full orchestra and the state of the art videos and art stills shown on massive screens will highlight the games most memorable sequences and thrill audiences.

Coupled with Victoria Chorale (form VJC) and Vocal Consort.

Guest Performers
Anna Koor Chooi Choo
- Mezzo-Soprano

Kee Loi Seng
- Tenor

William Lim
- Baritone

Repertorie
FF VIII: Liberi Fatali
FF X: To Zanarkand
FF VIII: Don't Be Afraid
FF VII: Aerith's Theme
FF I-III: Medley 2002
FF V: Dear Friends
FF IX: Vamo' alla Flamenco
FF XI: Raonafaure
FF Series: Main Theme

Intermission

FF VII: Opening - Bombing Mission
FF VIII: Fisherman's Horizon
FF XI: Memoro de la Stono - Distant Worlds
FF IV: Theme of Love
FF series: Swing de Chocobo
FF VIII: Love Grows
FF VI: Opera "Maria and Draco"

Encore
Eyes on Me
One Winged Angel

LineUp:
Singapore Festival Orchestra
Victoria Chorale
Vocal Consort

Personal Views.
Impressive. There are only 3 trumpets but yet the sound was "gigantuan" AWESOME guest principal trumpeter there! When he did the Chocobo theme, there was a very bright chirpy sound, despite with the mute on... impressed impressed. His other solos were awesome too. Very neat tongue-ing and there were many on-the-verge-of-cracking notes which i've always wanted to do... Flutes were loud too though there are only 2-3 of them... Yep, Piccolo has his on-the-verge-of-cracking notes too... Oboes (2) were particularly impressive, as though it was "telling stories". Piano is fine, wasnt particularly impressed. Trombone (3) was strong, neat, big-sounding notes too, very "warm" sound... Band was pretty small (though plentiful of violins, cello and viola) but it sounded like some 50-70people band. Perhaps good acoustics of Esplanade Concert Hall helped in amplifying the sounds.... Shant comment on winds/ percussion since i wouldnt make a good reviewer anyway.

And guess what? Nobuo Uematsu was THERE IN PERSON. He was really comical. Dressed in simple traditional Japanese clothes (i dun really know what you call 'em), he stood next to the choir group to "sing" one winged angel.

Was really really really ecstatic that they played one winged angel during the encore.
That's my favourite song in the whole FF series
"Eyes on me" was in Arnie Roth's version, not the usual kind we always hear...

Impressed.

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY FOUR - D.A.I and guitar-hunting (online) and watching dumb dvds

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY FOUR - D.A.I and guitar-hunting (online) and watching dumb dvds

it feels good to be home alone.
blasting D.A.I(do as infinity) dvd on the Home Surround System.
=)

watched Bride Wars and Push dvd yesterday.
was alright.
Bride Wars is so disneyfied.. bringing back memories of secondary 1-2 where we watched Freaky Friday, etc.
*thinks i still have the ticket stubs somewhere*

dad finally agreed to the whole guitar affair.
^^
was torn between acoustic/ electric/ acoustic-electric.
and yes, spoilt for choice.
Takamine, Epiphone, Ibanez, Fender, Cort, etc.
Dont think dad's going to fund me for the guitar...
so i've a pretty low budget (below 450bucks)

after 3 long nights... i've finally decided on an acoustic-electric.
so it will either be Maestro, Takamine or Ibanez.
Though i really want a Fender....
But well, Fender's too good for a beginner.

IT'S FINAL FANTASY CONCERT TODAY.
and jasper's on morning duty. Lol.

Spring-cleaned my lappy...
And omg! i've 300photographs to send for developing.
And i've to spend the rest of my holidays sticking them to photo albums.
somebody recommend me an inexpensive place to develop photos pls.

it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.
it feels good to be home alone.

Next Stop: Da Vinci Exhibition
Venue: Singapore Science Centre
Date: 15th May onwards.
Ticket Price: 7bucks for students.

feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.
feels good to be a student.

i've a list of things to get...
# Guitar (450+bucks)
# Develop photos (75bucks)
# Opeth live dvd (40bucks)
# Da Vinci Exhibition (7bucks)
# Photo Albums (50bucks)
# Estatic Fear Album (30+bucks)
# Antimatter Album (30+ bucks)
# Possible guitar lessons from brandon gan/ guitar garage (140per month)

...
think i need to start work soon.

planned to go kite-flying with Gary @ the plains on friday.
but well, i didnt realised it was friday till 5pm yesterday...
and best of all, we didnt confirmed the timing.
i guessed he had forgotten it was friday too.
=x

publish your joys and conceal your griefs.
thats the way we should be...
thats the way we should live by...
thats life.

ttyl

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY THREE - Chocolatier + SHIN

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY THREE - Chocolatier

spent yesterday playing Chocolatier 2.

Pretty addictive but extremely tiring.

Having to fly to different countries to stock up on ingredients...

Coming up with your very own creations...

And yes, they added coffee on top of the usual chocolates...

More quests too.

Will be trying County Fair Tycoon, the amusement park...

^^

yes, i'm really bored.

And i've been listening very much to SHIN Xin Yue Tuan these days.

yea, surprising.

There's a very rugged feel in their slow songs.

Very Eason-feel.

Yoohoos! the Final Fantasy gig is this SATURDAY

POST-EXAM ACTIVITY TWO - Museum + Kbox

POST EXAM ACTIVITY TWO - Museum Visit + kbox

okay this is really random.
but kosin and i went Asian Civilisation Museum for a museum visit.
we had much much fun looking like tourists.
will upload pics if i'm not lazy =x

They happened to be holding a KangXi Emperor Special exhibition.
WOW.
i'm impressed at the stuff which we actually own.
uber impressed over the intricate designs on the relics.

dumb fun but she really made my day.
never fail to impress her with my randomness and yes, she's in awe with my sense of direction.

Yy came along to join us for kbox.
dumb fun in the room too.
HAHAHA
and wow, yy did sing well.
practice did help after all.

and yes, he's amazed with my sense of direction as well.

thanks guys for today!
next trip(s):
# Final Fantasy Concert
# fly kite
# guitar hero
# peranakan museum
# MINT museum of toys
# royal selangor museum
# sentosa
.... ...
# report to work


okay i think i need to stay home tmr to pack my table.


yes, friends are the best remedies around.
i guess you wun be hearing from me anytime soon.

post-exam activity one - shopping alone on a weekend

Post-Exam Activity ONE

Went shopping @ Plaza Sing today.
Alone.
And why is everyone so shocked at my random-ness? haha
It wasnt as lonely as i thought i would be.
i survived shopping alone on a crowded weekend.

Okay, maybe i wasnt totally alone.
there are still people who msges, who calls.

So the question is why did i go shopping alone?

i always say i want to experience shopping alone on a crowded weekend.
well, thats the truth... not totally.
the thing is i woke up this morning at my usual time of 7am, and couldnt forget what happened last night.
so you can say i'm feeling cranky, irritable and "best left alone"
and a little emo.
i tend to do more random things at times like this, such as asking people out for Timbre last minute.
i promise i'll try to control my random-ness in the future, not in the near future.

"best left alone" me went home and got a earful.
i dun understand why i'm getting the earful because of my sibs' wrongdoings
i dun understand why i'm being blamed for "neglecting family life" despite being home the last full 3 weeks (except going school and once-in-a-while hangout)
i dun understand why my mum doesnt appreciate that i'm already trying my best by helping around in the house, being really goody-good, helping with groceries....
maybe its human nature - " when we get what we want, we expect more"
i'm really really tired of being unappreciated.

no mood to get down working on the new collection for collage scraps.
gotten myself some more embellishments, craft knife, craft punch today.

maybe i need to get to bed.
i'll be better tomorrow.
lets hope.

yay

i'm now done with exams!

shane and i were smiling to ourselves the whole time waiting for entry to the hall and the car trip home.
hahahaha.
and he suggested going timbre like now.
so steady luhh!
hahaha.

yea, i think i need a drink.

your news came so unexpected.
you didnt give me time to prepare myself.
now, i think i never want to see you again.
thank you for spoiling my mood.

clearance

will be doing spring cleaning for my lappy starting from tomorrow...
which means ALL the pictures will be developed and deleted from my lappy.
let me know if you would like to have any pics (via email please)

i've pictures for...

# PHS Kuantan (yy, yuanwen, kokwey only)
# PHS Dining Etiquette 2004
# Randy's Old House BBQ 2006
# PHS graduation service, including pics taken in chapel
# PHS funfair 2007
# PHS Prom 2005
# PHS ice-skating
# PHS NYE countdown 2008
# PHS NYE countdown 2009 (randy, sz, gary only)
# PHS steamboat 2006
# PHS gathering 27-12-2008
# Potluck (potluck clique only)
# Christmas Hangout (kosin, yy only) @ Suntec
# Robin's graduation ceremony (robin only)
# Xy's birthday @ Timbre
# Random takings of school's compound, band



# MJC learning trip 2006
# MJC Colosseum 2006
# MJC NDP 2007/2008
# MJC Jersey Class Pic
# Teachers' Day
# Aaron Tan's Farewell
# Meetup (eliz,yaqin,man ning, linh, jace)
# MJC Prom

# RE dinner-after-work pics (alwyn, gloria, rosey, etc)
# RE dinner after work pics (diana, linna, cheryl, etc)
# RE hangout + Kbox (kelly, josh, seb, lynn, ade)
# RE hangout 2 (ade, mel, seb, josh, lyn, alwyn)

LAST PAPER WOOHOOOOOOOOOOS

random

3more papers. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

ended last fri paper with lunch @ Tampines 1 with Shane.
we were supposed to relax.
but i think we ended up stressing each other out.
lol.

tried taking bus 27 to expo for exams in the morning.
to my horrors and horrors, i couldnt get on 2 buses as they were already overpopulated.
so i tried taking 88 to Pasir Ris Stn instead.
and i reached at 9am at expo when the paper starts at 10am.
=S

Antimatter did a really fabulous job at calming me down each morning.
I shall get "planetary confinement" next
^^

i'm so over with Restaurant City.

Maybe

Maybe you were bored, needed some company
and i couldnt be there.

Maybe it was just a friendly gesture on your part
and there were others around anyway.

Maybe i was just being plain sensitive,
Anyway, you did plan us a separate date.

Maybe i'm just finding excuses for you,
and i've no idea why since i 'm not feeling.

Maybe thats what people always say,
whats gone is gone.

Maybe just maybe,
ours has never been everlasting.

Maybe thats why,
what never started will never linger for long.

Maybe memories are forsaken and forgotten on our part
May it be.

the smell of holidays

shane texted to say he had received his, so i went out to my mail box
and yesssssss,
THE LETTER FINALLY ARRIVED YESTERDAY!
very glad that all the papers are at Expo. ^^

two days to first paper - poa.
i'm estatic!
counting down to holidays.... 10days!

some post-exams activities
# Sun+Sand+Wind
# Kite-flying
# Going obscure places in Singapore with a trusty camera (i'm into photography =x)
# Stayover @ grandma's place, seafood feast
# Guitar Hero sessions
# Regular gym sessions
# Kbox.
.
.
.

i'm feeling estatic just thinking of these activities.

i thought you walked away.
why come back now, twice as sweet?

X-Men Origins - Wolverine

took a break from all the mugging
accompanied Sz to orchard to get some of his stuffs.
and ended the day with X-Men Origins: Wolverine
i think it was a pretty good movie
Hugh Jackman reprises the role that made him a superstar ^^
And yes, i didnt know that there was such a story behind the name Wolverine. Interesting.
But the story is seemingly similar to another movie which i cant remember the title, i.e. the experiments on mutants/ humans.
pretty worth it for a weekend movie.
-cuz no one else can do Wolverine the way Hugh Jackman did. ^^

orchard was pretty empty for a weekend.
but while you are walking out after the movie, you know where the crowd is.
had thought of visiting yy @ taka, but i'm already back at dhoby ghaut.
Other time, mate!

will work doubly hard tmr to make up for today's loss.

4 days to first paper
yes, the examination notice is still nowhere.

in prep of solitary days

there are some things which i really really want to overcome.
And if i ever successfully did, they will be good training in prep of solitary days i guess...

i'm trying hard not to need anyone.
i dun know why.
maybe i'm afraid of falling into the world of oblivion
and i've never let myself be totally dependent on anyone
because deepdown i'm afraid of being let down, forsaken, forgotten, left behind.
maybe thats why i'm afraid of commitment

talk to me about your insecurities.
and listen to mine.
we'll work things out, somehow


"Language has created the word loneliness to express the pain of being alone, and the word solitude to express the glory of being alone"