CNY

Went for pri sch class gathering.
Lol, i know what you are thinking.
Dun stare at me, i didnt expect myself to turn up until a friend called me (on my house phone).
The house phone hasnt rang for me the past 5 years i guess.
And this friend hasnt called as of we grad from pri sch (7-8 years ago)
And i thought it was chekhow as the names sounded alike.

And so, i did turn up for the gathering @ my p4/5/6 form teacher's place.
yea, the term "form teacher" hadnt been used for quite some time.
Turned up early @ the meeting place with Esther and CY.
Then slowly the rest came along.
Most of them hadnt changed much.
hahaha.
and yes, i've difficulty remembering their names.

there's this particular guy whom i always see around my neighbourhood.
had always thought he was from some other class in pri sch.
he turned up that day...
and i realised, he was a pri 4 friend.
*knock my head*
and yes, i've forgotten his name too.

CNY visitations has always been the same
for the past TEN YEARS.
but well, continuity of a family tradition may not be a bad thing...
it saves alot of time.

on a random note, i've heard CNY 2010 falls on Valentine's Day.

Prelim dates are out
About time to settle the mind/heart for revision.
I need to mug mug mug!

Letting nature takes its course
A slow and steady pace
we'll come to it one day.

CNY

HAPPY CNY

May all win at mahjong/ dai dee/ blackjack games.
Dun grow fat from the CNY goodies
and most importantly, fat angpows.

Lol! such atypical of us.

FESTIVE DEPRESSION

If you are feeling really upbeat about the upcoming festive occasions, I suggest you quit reading this entry.

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I dread festive occasions. Not only just CNY, but all other occasions... including Christmas, Birthdays, etc. And at the bottom of the heart, i think i know why. It's just whether I would quit self-denial and of course, a matter of time.

FESTIVE DEPRESSION

Credits to BlackDog Institute

The Situation
For many people the festive season is a time of isolation, negative thoughts and increased feelings of stress, anxiety and depression. There are several reasons why this period can increase the risk of depression for some people. Many build up to this time of year with great expectations, only to find disappointment if hopes are not fulfilled. People who are socially isolated, or who have lost a loved one through death or a relationship ending can experience heightened feelings of loneliness or grief.

The Solution
1) Have realistic expectations:unrealistic expectations are likely to lead to disappointment when compared to reality, and can heighten feelings of failure or isolation.

2) Plan for difficult times: For those who expect to feel lonely or isolated during the festive time, plan for ways of connecting with other people.

My Conclusion
I'll let you know if any of the above solutions work.

Chicken Soup For The Heart Part III

"when he/she doesnt do the lovey-dovey stuffs, it doesnt mean he/she doesnt love you"


Drama serials are like fairytales
Tantalising, teary, dramatic love stories.
There is a reason why it is a love-hate relationship with drama serials.

The Situation
Naively
At times we may expect the little acts of love as seen on teevee
and get disappointed when he/she falls short of such "expectations"
and ponders if he/she really loves you.

The Reason
People portray their acts of love differently.
Be it the "we'll get there" talks
Be it the "want come over my house" invitations
Perhaps to him/her, he/she felt he/she had made himself/herself understood.
Like how we like to keep our thoughts/feelings to ourselves, thinking "it's obvious enough"

The Conclusion
things are better off said.

Chicken Soup For The Heart Part II

Nope, this isnt another post about his "drift-aways".
He didnt. Yet to, maybe.

"We'll Get There" Talks

In our "growing up and ageing" process
we would have experienced the "we'll get there" talks.

The situation: One fine day, you and your friend sat down and have a little talk over coffee. Reminiscing the past, procrastinating about the present, fantasizing the future. And your friend started to talk about issues on co-habitation, marriage and retirement life and each ending with a "we'll get there" note.

The reason: i cant really think of any.

Aftermath: The million-dollar question- can we really take the talk seriously?

Chicken Soup For The Heart Part 1

The Book
"Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"
- John Gray

I particularly liked John Gray's analysis on why "Men go to their caves" (MN should be able to "appreciate" at the same level as me)
The situation is where he becomes "increasingly distant, forgetful, unresponsive" and "incapable of giving her the attention and feeling he normally gives"
The reason: Unlike the Venusian who sought relief by talking out her problem, a Martian kept it to himself and mulls over it. Or possibly to find themselves where they feel that "too much intimacy robs them of their power" - the need to "regulate" the closeness.
Aftermath: Hopefully a more "rejuvenated and loving" person

I never used to understand this need for his sudden pulling-away and the sudden closeness.
Now that i do, it brings understanding to a deeper level.
And at the very least, in this walk, i'm never alone.

My set of solutions.
My prepared mind and heart.

The toughest has to be the "wait" and the million dollar question to "who/when/how to break the silence"

Bringing myself back to the true reason for this entry:
I foresee it coming soon.

friday was fun ^^

tiffany and i walked over to np for lunch
realised it was their open house day.
and they have a new makan place!
strolled around the school
and the ushers offered us their goodie bags =S
guess i haven changed much after graduating for 3 years from sec school.

went home to take a nap before meeting sz for dinner after his class
and went orchard to shop and he brought me to secret cd haunts.
went to our fav cd shop - the "classy" that cd shop ^^
held his "Record Collector Mag" hostage. =x
attempted to walk from orchard to dhoby ghaut
Given that he hadnt slept for 3 days and i had woke up early.
mid way through, we ended up at the eatery near Le Meridien to sit and chill.
Lol!
aint much of a shopper.

jazz music.
curtains.
arm chair.
side table.
red wine.
friends.

wake-up-call-to-stay-sane entry

*was never part of the foam cans era, and prolly too overaged to play with them now*

emo-ness spread via blogs

Last holiday before Feb comes around.

blog-hopped while waiting for my video to load
and i realised, emo-ness can actually spread via blogs.
especially when you see your own shadow in their thoughts.

a particular phrase in a blog entry struck me.
"boyfriends come and go"
It reminds me of us. The very state we are in.
Maybe it is not that we didnt want to be committed
It is because we are afraid that we may not end up together and become hi-bye friends thereafter.
We've seen much.
Enough to lose faith in ourselves
Enough to lose confidence in the other half.
And concluded that nothing is worth-risking to jeopardise our current state.
Who knows, maybe one day you'll sing me Herr Mannelig.

i took the other way
hoping to drift away
didnt
hadnt
wouldnt