grown out.

as we age, we are more or less done with the things we want to say
and everything else, we keep it to ourselves.
nobody has to know everything about everyone.
and we should never "stay connected" about happenings in our friends' lives by just reading their blogs.

Sometimes....
the life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, but writes another
- James Matthew Barrie

pic

Something made for Man Ning.

the gloomy view from the bedroom

these days, i try to stay away.

SPREEE

i got really bored.
with PBF tutorial.
i took 3 hours for 3 questions.
what the hell am i doing?

online spreeing again.
order some random things which will only arrive next month.
Meanwhile, the bag from the spree i joined last month has finally been shipped.
yet delivered.
Owells.

new face.

no poa today.
left house at around 1030am for 1200pm PBF.
was nearly late, so i cabbed down from clementi mrt with tiff to school.
as usual, we were left lost after PBF (which is the norm)

was at the bus-stop, decided to take 52 to MacRitchie which was a seemingly shorter route compared to bus 74.
saw shane at the bus-stop.
took 52 together and crapped on e journey.
he's funny.

yesterday,
the heart skipped a beat.
not for you.

and a whole new cycle will start.

from scratch.

but will you be happy for me?

=/

WHAT?!
no classes again.
no POA till 24/09
no PBF next week.
this doesnt sound sane, but i wished we had more PBF classes.

was feeling totally bored yesterday.
had wanted to take a walk outside alone or maybe with a buddy.
somewhere like clarke quay, vivo skypark, botanical gardens.
somewhere away from the city.
yes, there's a voice inside me saying
escapism

Sis's on the night flight to Korea for hols.
i want go too!

It's Autumn.
Leaves are falling and piling untouched.
on a road less travelled.

Tune: Opeth - Beneath the Mire

If you sense your faith is unraveling, go back to where you dropped the thread of obedience.

Sally' Song

Fiona Apple/ Catherine O' Hara
Sally's Song

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have

The worst is just around the bend
And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?
No, I think not,
it's never to become
For I am not the one

Melancholic

Singapore Sun Festival.
17 - 26 October 2008

i didnt know there's this thing called the Sun Festival in Singapore.
But the events are kindof interesting.
Hope to attend (if i've the time)
-Drumfest 2008 @ Fort Canning

Okay now that the holidays are over.
things set out left undone.
1) PBF tutorials
2) Potluck @ my place

sometimes only you can help yourself.
you just have to quit lying to yourself.
hanging out together gives me greater misery.

Rediscovering The Nightmare Before Christmas OST

Rediscovering...





# Fiona Apple - Sally's Song
I was drawn to this coarse version of Sally's Song (as compared to the original version by Catherine O'Hara) It doubled the original dosage of melancholy and loneliness. But somehow the Sally's face didnt quite suit the coarse vocals (in the mv) and the song has yet reached the stage of melancholia. Lol. But still, ALLURING~

# Marilyn Manson - This is Halloween
Do not watch the Marilyn Manson's live in LA This is Halloween version. i dont see why the band can remember playing the song but he cant remember the lyrics. Utterly disappointing though i wasnt much of his fan. Airing the displeasure on Danny Elfman's behalf. Lol. This version is pretty much alluring too.

There are other songs in this limited edition album.
# Fall Out Boy did the song "What's This?"
# She Wants Revenge did the song "Kidnap the Sandy Claws"
# Panic! At the Disco did the song "This is Halloween" - I liked the opening and the clean and delicate vocals. Added much flavour to further dramatise the song. Operatically alluring.
# Demo Versions by Danny Elfman

no promise whatsoever

call me inflexible, but i seriously loathe last minute things/changes.

things always screw up just when i've made plans for them.
something will definitely happen just to stop me from fulfilling these promises.
gatherings, outings, shopping, jogging, dinner/lunch dates, going for movies, etc.

had wanted to go jogging this week, it rained EVERY SINGLE DAY.
had wanted to go Baybeats, Sebas-Ade-Me had last minute things.
had wanted class gatherings, but still i have things on (at least for the whole month of sept, i'm more or less unavailable)
had wanted to go shopping, then rain + family stuff.

seriously, what's wrong?

since i cant make any promises for anything.
i'll give everything a miss rather than backing out at the last minute.
i'm sorry.
sometimes, things are really not up to me.

was randomly asking a friend if he had passed nafa.
he went "yet, but sure fail"
was trying to motivate him by asking him "so, other than the physical part, what else worries you?"
he said "my bed"
Tried to scare him further with "Man, imagine those who had used the bed before you. All sweaty, smelly, and boy, you'll never know what they did on the bed"
he went "WTF"
rattled on "And think, we may not even meet as regularly as now at least for that 2 years you're in there and what's more... i think ipods are not allowed!"
he went "dun depress me further"
LOL.
i guess motivation has different effect on different people.
motivation/depression - an invisible line of difference.

eliz just called ytd about the econ assignment.
and...
i haven even dl the file yet.
great.

WORRIES

even though you are seemingly okay.
i cant stop worrying.
i cant stop worrying.
i cant...
Stop worrying.

PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE OF URSELF.
at least, for us.