enlightenment?

i've finally understood.
maybe it was God's decision that we shldnt hang out anymore.
an end to the prolonged tug-of-war.
that is why we gradually distant ourselves for the past 2 weeks.
no doubt i wrestle to come to terms in accepting.
lets not even stay as buddies.
This i know, is the best way out.

went shopping today...
not as a therapy or anything.
spent 50bucks on myself, 60 bucks on mum.
there goes two days pay.
but i must admit... it feels good.

It is getting dark again
Dusk shuffle across the fields
The evening trees moan as if they knew
At night I always dream of you
i will get over you.