heartfelt

HABITUAL CONTAINMENT...
I'M FINDING A MEDIUM FOR EXPRESSION...

he knows me very well.
he can even sense the unhappiness in me despite the usual "publish your joys and conceal your tears" from me.
he really knows me very well... and he's the only one...
he had always hated nights out but yet, he initiated a meet up last sunday night.
the way he cooked up some kuku excuse to make me get out of my house.
he said he dun wan his weekend to end just like that, and he wants to hang out to breathe air.
lol. what kind of excuse is that?
didnt want to go out cuz wasnt in the right mood.
but it was cute, i gave in.
and i must admit, it touched my heart.
but still, he's not the medium for my expression...
the armoury on me is just far too much.

i dun know how we will go from here.
he say things like well, next time when i have a biz, i'm sure to rope you in.
then i said, yea sure i'll prolly invest in you and simply be a shareholder.
and whenever we pass by some really nice apartments...
he would say things lyk next time we'll buy the house here.
so am i supposed to take him seriously?

went nus today with man ning and yaqin...
was supposed to meet them at 1345... to give them a surprise, i reached at 1330...
but to my horror and horror, yaqin and man ning were still at BEDOK...
TSK.
lol. must be because yq is late...
saw cynthia/aaron/patricia/jenny/and many other mjc people...
open house was okay...
not very very impressed though...
more or less decided.
will apply by next week...

same here, i dun wan my weekend to end just like that without you.