let loose

i know everyone is waiting for this blog entry...
received the results yesterday...
well-expected, so felt kinda okay...
i wouldnt say i'm very satisfied with the results, neither would i say i'm unhappy over the results...
results were about average.
went open house hopping today...

thank you Lord for being there keeping me strong in my trust in You.
thank you Lord for never failing me.

will be going to Riverlife tmr for service with man ning...
and perhaps after that with yaqin and some other people for movies...

i need someone to talk to now.
and where are you?
it's tiresome to contain the tears of disappointment and fear.
it's tiresome to feign that i'm fine and happy.
but i can only cry in your presence.
and only you have the ability to let me cry out and encourage me thereafter.
so where are you?